foreverqiyuan

Really deeply humbled

2011-10-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

Today I went to find Mr. Kang, co-founder and managing director of Mr Bean =] My favourite Singaporean brand is really Mr. Bean=]

Mr. Kang was really nice. At first he went through each and every word of the report and I was really scared he will discover some gross mistake and not like the report and be pissed with it..

He went through until he remembered something. and he called for some of his office workers to come in to discuss somethings. It was then that i realised that he is VERY busy and keeps flying here and there to have franchise agreements and stuff like that.. and he discussed about plastic materials with his workers and also the real problems of the shortage of beans due to shipment delay. (well they do have a list of singapore supplier and yes they do source from them if their supplies are insufficient)

He went through the risks and thought that some were damn puny and lame.. like the usage of expired beans.. And he taught me alot of things which are really invaluable lessons.

- Like how theft could not really be prevented by just installing a CCTV system alone, (this point is very valid, especially after it has been explained by my mother, how sales people actually blatantly commit theft when she was working with them in the provision shop) machines to evenly space beans out, tools to select only round beans and machines that will detect abnormally coloured beans so that quality is really there.

-... cannot really remember

Whatever it is, He is very humble and nice and really cares for his workers- How complex the agricultural process of soya beans actually are with . I really liked Mr Bean and will continue being fervent about it!

pubbing

2011-06-03T21:04:00.000-07:00

Iwan is really complicated. Like really I want to write down the stuff that he said and I gathered yesterday but it was really complicated and I don't really want to pen it down. But I really shall to note down the diversity of people around.

He lost his virginity at the age of 17, had sex i dunno how many times, One night stands, in his room............

is really very open discussing issues like fingering, masturbation, hand job, blow job so on and so forth.... ..................... ........

Very open in doing a dare, really kissed the waitress on the cheeks......

Bubble burst confirmed yesterday.

=[

2011-05-19T06:28:00.000-07:00

emo freak.

Taiwan sucks seriously and it is really the accompaniment. Like wth. I came here with the intention to be nice to my parents since they have retired and it is such a rare opportunity to have one whole family coming up for a holiday. But it is ok la. Not that sucky. Just that I hope I am in sg now.

I can feel the inferiority complex bugging me again. Like wth. I want to be pretty and I only want to be pretty and wear pretty clothes. The thing I hate about taiwan is really this. Makes me feel like some shit.

=[ And that useless feeling. erase it just erase it.

I hate having emotional attachment to anything.

omg studying for exams are so boring

2011-05-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

HOWWWWWWW~!!!!!!

I want to do well but I can't sit down and study, nor read citizen kane which happens to be so many pages long. The tension on my shoulders are getting from bad to worse laaaaaaa

DIE LIAO LOR. ACCOUNTING AND TAX AND FILM.

ALL B and can GG LIAO.

freaking irritating

2011-04-09T01:14:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I am so distracted. Studied, albeit ditractedly, for like 1 hour and couldn't stand the noise/ whatever, the slightest noise, movement distracts me and it is really irritating. GAHHH!!!!

I'm back in singapore

2011-01-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

Like long ago but did not bother to update. Had my birthday party and went to malaysia, went outing with jan and sijin and had countless walks with mom. School is starting soon. I can feel the competition and I can feel the heat.

I really wished I could face this positively, the losing weight, school and not be some bimbo whose whole motivation is from jealousy and fear. I need to stop comparing. Stop comparing myself to people who get 10 K intern and make myself feel miserable. Stop comparing myself to the NBS camp clique girls and feel inferior.

Be positive and do sth about your life!!!

its new year

2011-01-06T08:29:00.000-08:00

I am quite surprised that I haven't posted here for quite a long time and it is already 6 days into new year. Probably busy with exams? But not posting here doesn't equate to the days here being more bearable. It is unbearable to be alone. and what got me into this whole thing was my possessiveness and jealously and the need for a good friend to talk to. I need things to do.

emooooooo

2010-12-01T10:22:00.000-08:00

so I put kuguojiuhaolema? in my msn nick and why did I put that in the very first place? cause of tce, everything is cause of her and I don't like the fact that my emotions are so closely linked to her. I guess I just want to be very good friends with her and somehow you just can't force things out. you just found someone that is nice and kind and someone whom you are really able to talk to and feel comfortable with doesn't mean that she will find you a right match for a good friend and everything. I have no idea why I am cooped up with this issue for such a long time and even pondering about the question of whether I am a lesbian / not.

I'm glad I am surrounded by a group of good friends. So we had htht today after they saw my msn nick yesterday. Of course I tried all means to avoid giving the answer to their questions and we watched a really scary movie called case 39... really scaryy....

I really hope that I can forget about the fact that I want to be good friends with teo choun eng and really let things progress naturally. I mean this kind of cases has always occured to me and I always feel the same....... come to think of it, sijin, weining, sueping... I cannot really get very very close to a person don't I? It's either the problem with the person/ the problem with me in the sense that I won't be able to fully trust anyone so much so that I don't think I will ever have a very very close friend.

daddy and mommy going back tml! ......... ........... ......... ................ .......

this is torturing me bit by bit

2010-11-29T06:15:00.000-08:00

Why am I so vulnerable. So weak and susceptible. So easily irritated. Just anyone, anyone could rob me of my peace of mind. Anyone could just come and say a few words and open my floodgate of tears. I hate being susceptible, I hate my weak mind.

yet again

2010-11-28T18:27:00.000-08:00

lesbiany actions update............

talking to chounie on msn and I keep pestering her to come up to my room and said things like, I did not see you the whole day today, miss you so please come up... I think if I go back to sg and look at this blogpost, I would totally faint by the things I do and the things I say.

So I waited rather long until she comes up, probably at 11plus, near 12 am. She happily ate her ferro roche and chips. The lappie was on my bed and again, we were lying on the same bed. She's looking at her zhangzichen for like forever, while I'm lying beside her. My hands again are not listening to me, not that I did bother to control my hands. I keep grabbing her arms, even when she moves away/ move my hand away, I still keep grabbing her arms. persistent huh. My right hand is also constantly wrapped around her shoulders, caressing her hair and tickling her neck. I keep gazing at her face and was very afraid that she realises it.

I need to control myself. These actions are totally ridiculous.

This is like so freaking wrong

2010-11-24T07:37:00.000-08:00

I came to exchange for good reasons. To boost my resume, to be independent, to experience a different life without my parents around. To show that I can do it myself and I am not a freaking whiny complainy bitch who only goes to her parents when problem arises. I am not here to become a lesbian. I have much better stuff to do than that okie.

I HAVE TO
1) be prettier
2) be thinner
3) be more intelligent and business like
4) improve on your communication skills...........

sucks man

2010-11-24T07:00:00.000-08:00

It really does. When your life doesn't belong to you. When you keep thinking and thinking of others. And this is like a so much worse scenario cause that freaking person is of a freaking same sex.

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I need to be thin la

2010-11-22T20:12:00.000-08:00

already so fat still eat so much snacks at unearthy hours.

Just finish dinner then go to sleep =.=

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Go for your freaking walks.

Cold weather is not an excuse. But it is really cold......... ............................... ..................... ..........

Howwwwwwww. I am such a fat asssssssss.......

so how

2010-11-21T02:47:00.000-08:00

I am getting weirder day by day. Somehow, when choun eng doesn't retaliate I will just keep doing very lesbiany stuff. Haiz, I think one day she will get freaked out by me and stop talking to me. I just got a feeling that she is freaked out already.

So today she called me at 9.05 am and asked me out to wudaokou to buy her train return tickets from harerbin. I was of course very delighted to get her call, I just had my bath and was wondering what is the next thing I should do. Chouny did not sleep =[. Got dressed and cycled to C lou with dear choun choun to withdraw money. Then we cycled to wudaokou via east gate.

Her dosage of my lesbiany actions are :

1) eating at the porridge place and my left hand is really not listening to me. I kept caressing her 大腿. Like the whole time there, my hands were there, massaging her legs and it even went into the inner portion of her 大腿. She did not retaliate but just asked "yuanyuan why are you molesting my legs?" and I just went back to the argument of "today is the last day we will be together already"

2) keep holding her hands like every step I walk, I need to hold her hands. The same argument arise when I held her palms and she will bring my hands up to her arms. she will ask why I like holding hands and I will tell her that it is the last day that she is here in beijing. And she's like "if that's the case does it mean that we'll have sex tonight?" I am like, " ok you want?" and she did not reply.

3) resting my head on her shoulders.

4) trying to hold her hands while she was cycling. This was the part where I encountered rejection. She freaked out and cycled off quickly to c lou. The journey to c lou was scary. I was like , oh shit why did I do that? do I suffer from some autism/ have an inability to express myself/ am I really a freaking lesbian?! at the same time I am trying very hard to think what I should say when I met her back at c lou again. So when I arrived at c lou I said with a pout " choun enggg why you cycle so fast" she replied " to avoid you" but luckily she acted normally when we were at c lou, did wait for me when I was slower, not very freaked out. I won't try such stuff anymore, I will keep it within the boundaries that I have already set. YES I WILL.

Hai, sexual fantasies with women around. HOW QIYUAN. SOME GUY PLEASE APPEAR.

I'm okie

2010-11-14T20:43:00.000-08:00

I guess I am more or less okie. No more lesbian thoughts or anything. I am strong and will continue to be strong. Jia you Qi Yuan! Do your stuff!!! Don't miss your marketing assignment again!

My oats are nice when I mix the plain one with the flavoured one.

I wasn't happy today

2010-11-12T07:01:00.001-08:00

We went drinking with the thai people yesterday. They were quite fun but horrible comments. Hippo and round faced =.=

Getting back to the topic that links to the title, I wasn't happy today. It seems that for forever, my own happiness is not just based on me and myself. I am so vulnerable, so weak. My emotions are uncontrollable and this does suck.

So to the explanation and description of why I wasn't happy, today me and ying ying went to simin and choun engs room to wake them up. It wasn't that early, like 11 15? We had to try our ways and means to wake them up to go to tiananmen. The process got so irritating that I just decided to give up halfway. Like for every outing, we have to go and wake them up? So in the end we only
Another reason why I wasn't happy was because of my dependence on that bitchy teo choun eng. WTH. why the fuck am I so dependent on her? Why do I always have to managed to go to tiananmen and some weird palace maids stuff. There are many other stuff there like the gugong and wangfujing. We missed gugong cause apparently it is too late to go in. We could have gone to wangfujing but I have no idea why we took a long train ride there and a long train ride back to wudaokou to have buffet =.= hold her freaking hands. I already tried controlling myself already. Like today I was pissed with them so I did not hold her hands. I persevered for quite a while and in the end I still held and played with her hands =[

Sucks. I am going to do my marketing assignment like now. NOW!

reduce that reliance

2010-11-09T07:02:00.000-08:00

Somehow, I am reminded of the word reliance and I thought of reliance global com. And this reminds me of the review which I have to yet to write regarding my work at recruit express.

I am such a weakling. I thought I could be strong. I thought I could be independent. But I am not, I am weaker than I thought I was. My dependence just shifted from my family to my friends here and in particular teo choun eng. This really shouldn't be the case.

FREAK I WANT TO BE INDEPENDENT.

feeling very terrible in beijing

2010-10-29T00:35:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I have no idea why I am getting this kind of feeling. It feels very weird and very terrible. Really very terrible. I got rather close to choun eng and when she is close to rosel I will be jealous. Like............. ARGH.

I am a jealous freak. Being jealous really inhibits every activity of mine. Sucks. It sucks when you don't belong to only yourself. It really does.

I need to face reality

2010-10-14T22:48:00.000-07:00

I am in china and that does not cocoon me from all the competition.

I really hope that should I go for an interview, my greatest achievement in life would be that I slimmed down to an acceptable weight range. I am in china, leading a life of fun and food gorging. While people in singapore are competing fiercely for CCA positions, fighting for a resume-catching opportunity.

You should do something more productive.

it is the first of august

2010-07-31T20:16:00.000-07:00

I went for gathering last night! With my colleagues, at isa house. People who went were zach, joey, isa and magdalene. I got to know each and everyone better! And I think I will be going crazy very soon. Just like the previous case with deon. think to much man! =[ While we waited for joey to come, we played I had never. Isa is the only one who lost her virginity and I am so surprised zach has not. REALLY SHOCKED. Or is he just playing mind games again!!! =O And he played I had never in such a manner that he has to drink every time he says something. egs are. I had never eat shit before and he drink. Cause apparently he wanted to drink. and apparently he ate his own shit before=.=

each and everyone brought food there!

MAg- fish which was really good
isa- mauritian desserts which tastes quite weird
zach-vegetables and pork which was no comments. He also brought hokkein mee and beer.
joey- some chicken thingy and drinks
me- banana cake and potato chips. Heh. zach finished my banana cake =] I think it tastes quite weird, like not as nice as usual. =[

We played games - saboteur after our dinner. I am not good at mind games seriously. And you can see that joey, zach and isa are extremely good at it! Mag also blur blur! We also HTHT after that.

ya a long night, joey sent me and zach home and I reached home at 2.

DIE ALREADY LA. HOWWW. I think I am really going crazy again! this time over zach. He's quite nice right. I'm dying already la. getting overly possessive when nothing has really happened. He dropped me an sms to see whether I reached home but I didn't see it until this morning. I did not brush my teeth, bathe, nor changed clothes nor washed my face and I just lie down in bed to think of ---- .

I am so young. So green and new. =[ How QI YUAN?!

2010-07-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

my new role model is yanching! she is really good!

I should stop lying down.

take a walk or sth!

2010-06-11T23:48:00.000-07:00

weining is such a competitive bitch. Seriously.

I have no idea why, but I am starting to enjoy work, knowing that joey is actually protecting me from being fired. Cause I am sort of her "helper" to call RCs down and have also been tasked to fold paper and slot them into envelops and also been tasked to file yellow forms next week.

Abhishek better go for his interview on monday and I will be meeting Khoo Ee Jet on monday too, java developer role!

10 resumes per day seem to be stressing me out, the most I have sent is 8 resumes per day and that is like a full resume editing day, with no phone calls made.

Ya, and all the newbies, like zarah coming in, I am actually very afraid that she closes a deal earlier than me!

Shall try monstering sometime!

2010-06-04T17:25:00.000-07:00

just 2 posts ago, i was emoing cause i din get the job in recruit express. Well, I've gotten the job in recruit express already. Some miscommunication in between. So yeah, I have gotten the job. Work is sucky for now. I wonder how good can it be. Sian. Complaining to kat, shawn, johan, the indian temp.

Shit la, my mentor doesn't really want to teach me stuff!!!!! Johan said he could teach me how to use monster and post job adds. Seriously, my mentor haiz.

really boring to call RC everyday.

2010-05-28T22:08:00.001-07:00

WHEN WILL I BE PRETTY

emoing again

2010-05-13T06:40:00.000-07:00

=[

I went for the recruit express interview to be a team assistant. Basically it is a job with $51 of pay plus commision of $10 if you manage to match a perm staff and a $25 comission if you manage to match a contract staff. I really want to be in that environment. To be confident, to mix around well with people, to learn more about people management skills. Isn't that what I always wanted?

Somehow in the process of the second interview, I let my guards down, I allowed the interviewer to know my true personality. That I am a quiet, sendentary person. And also subconciously I thought that I could not do it and this job doesn't suit me. But so what if it doesn't? It is really a good opportunity to get to know more people, hone my people skills....

I regret not trying hard enough for the interview, I realised I made so many mistakes in the interview. There were so many opportunities for me to prove myself and prove the interviewer wrong when she says I am an introvert/ I have sufficient ability to be an extrovert during work.

I went into the first interview, really wanting to get the job. Trying very hard to fake out a personality that matches the job scope, especially in the personality tests. And I deflate in the second round. RARRRR I really want this opportunity don't I? =[

Currently I am working on and off at gor yi place. Not much people skills needed and sometimes it can get quite boring. I can learn much about accounting though. Applications are quite different from what we learn in school. Here, we are dealing with real figures and not fabricated ones.

I am emo partly because I am fat. The harmless workers at gor yi workplace called me names and hey I don't enjoy that. But they are harmless. I know that. They are free to speak out their minds.

I watched a jean yip television programme today. I'm quite surprised by the effort put in by the team of people. Not just relentless sales message about their programme but true effort in building up the confidence of the participant. Ranging from the DIY thingy and the numerous artiste who appeared in plaza singapura to tell the girl that HEY you are beautiful.

=[ I'm still quite emotional.

2010-04-30T09:41:00.000-07:00

I need to meditate, seriously.

I think too much, so much so that I am growing more and more dysfunctional.

This has always been the case since I was young.

Feeling so crappy now.

I decided that i shall initiate a convo with deon tonight. and guess what, he's not online. =[

You seriously need to slim down. STOP GROWING ANY FATTER. YOU ARE UGLY ENOUGH. DON MAKE IT WORSE.

BEAUTIFY YOURSELF DURING THIS HOLIDAYS. PLEASE STOP COCOONING YOURSELF FROM THE COMPETITION BY ONLY MIXING AROUND WITH PEOPLE WHO ALSO COCOON THEMSELVES FROM THE COMPETITION. SOMEHOW SOMEWAY, GO OUT WITH PEOPLE THAT DRESS BETTER, ARE NOT SMELLY, NOT IN THEIR OWN WORLD THINKING THAT THEY SOMEHOW WILL MARRY A RICH GUY.

LIFE IS SO SHORT, MAKE YOUR MARK, DRESS WELL, LOOK GOOD FOR ONCE.

qiyuan

2010-04-22T23:16:00.000-07:00

hates to study.

I wonder what my GPA for this semester will be like.

I am a equity entitled. I hope to receive more rewards by putting in lesser effort.

This has always been the case isn't it? Since young, I've been like that, hoping to put in lesser effort yet reaping so much more benefits.

But i have to study as I have a high need for achievement and a high need for power don't I?
I want to be looked up upon, I am easily jealousedd and stuff like that.

You seriously cannot trust anyone. especially people like weining, damn jian. I still remembered how hurt i was when friends just leave me for people they think are cooler and stuff.

=[
I shall only trust myself

HAHAHHAHAH

QI YUAN

heh

2010-04-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

I saw deon just now at jurong point. He was with justin, saikuan and keng loong. =]

Heng we decided to go to jurong point and go to popular.

=]

emo

2010-04-17T22:35:00.001-07:00

When I was young, I always wondered whether I would be pretty when I grow up. Whether I will have pretty clothes to wear and whether I can put them off well. When I was young, I was always envous of the female teenagers/adults as they have such nice and pretty clothes and look really attractive. The mental model I had when I was young would be the now catherine lai, xiao ying and felicia. They are all so thin and pretty and confident. IP KIDS ARGH!

I must admit that I do not have pretty clothes to wear since young since no one bothered to doll me up. In fact, I think that people who doll up are wasting their time and energy and are superficial. But the fact is that, everyone is superficial and looks does matters. =[

I am facing so much difficulties now that I want to look nicer in clothes. MY SIZE WTH.
But I could not totally attribute all to my size. Seriously. Look at eugenia (the girl whom I was irrationally jealous with) she is not exactly thin but puts off clothes quite well and has a sunny personality.

I should join a CCA and get to know more friends. Seriously. Being friendless just makes you more deprived and emo.

examsss noww. =[ I hope I will be able to pull through with GPA 4.5( meaning all A-) for this semester. I really hope so. And pull my gpa up.

QIYUAN. DON'T COCOON YOURSELF FROM THE COMPETITION. GO AND COMPETE and GRAB WHAT YOU DESERVE.

2010-04-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

and i just realise that deon is going to GIP switzerland with 3 other girls.

=[

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what is wrong with my GPA. So cui. I could not even afford a 4.33 to go to switzerland. What is wrong with me. 3.89

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

emo freak

2010-04-07T06:47:00.000-07:00

i'm so emo now

exams are approaching

Tomorrow is malay CA which consists of 35%

Friday is econs test which consists of 10%

I am ill-ly prepared

My life no longer belong to myself

It was my choice.

WHY DO I HAVE TO FALL FOR GUYS AFTER GUYS AND GET EMO WHEN NO ONE KNOWS!!!!

WTF.

university

2010-04-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

I just happened to browse through the entries of this blog. These sweet memories of my secondary school days. I am in university now, doing accountancy.

From my post, I realised I was only a very simple girl. Seeking for a true friendship, acceptance and recognition from others. Things do change and I am no longer that simple girl. I doubt everyone's moves and intention in whatever they do. I believe only in the bad of others.

I've matured by alot and I hope that I will continue to post in this blog and since it is a private blog, I will have this blog all to myself. I just realised that it is quite a joy to know my true feelings back then in secondary school.

For now, I have a malay test on thursday and a econs quiz on friday. Exams are approaching and I am not starting. CUI sums up the academic part of my life now.

As for my social life, the friend which I had a love-hate friendship with in my previous blogsposts happens to be one of the two secondary school friends whom I keep in contact with. I usually hang out with weining, sueping eeleng and huikiow in university. Though I hope for a larger social circle with more members of the opposite sex, I am fine with the current structure. Sometimes I am quite a loner, eating at canteen A alone is my maximum threshold. As for guys, I am still looking. This particular one caught my attention as he is so special and different from the others. And to top it up, he is friendly and we have long conversations in MSN, talking about anything under the sun. You could imagine how desperate I was to talk with him when I actually tried to catch his attention by putting a emo MSN nick. Some nick failed and some nick passed the test. I did all these to make me seem not so desperate. I shouldn't be the one always initiating the conversation. He should do some initiating too! But we are just friends for now.

University is very different from JC/ secondary/ primary. In JC/ secondary/ primary, everything is planned out for you and teachers ensure that the lazy students have enough time to pia for their major examinations like the PSLE/ O level/ A levels. However in the university, you have to fight for your own future. Literally FIGHT. I just feel that I am not geared up for the competition. The academic aspect, the presentation skills aspect, or the behavioral aspect, or the fitting-in aspect in terms of my size. You could just slack off and no one will care about you. There would be no professor who will scold you and bring you back to your study track. You have to fight for it yourself. NBS is a place with intense competition. I must not cocoon myself away from these competition. Bring out your fighting spirit. Fight qiyuan Fight!!!

My future may seem bright to many, NBS accountancy, one of the more sought after courses. But seriously I am unsure what I should do in the future.

I should start fighting now. For malay, for econs. I keep breathing keep keep breathing books. Be an academian for once, at least, for a month.

forget forget forget

2006-03-14T06:41:00.000-08:00

Today is tuesday. The second day of the holiday. I am down for SANA at SENG KANG. It's not that i am complaining but i do not understand why do i have to go when i am not even asked whether i wanted to go or even have a consent form for it. It was just told to me that i HAVE to go, no choice for me.

And yesterday someone just msged me, " pls do not be late for sana i'll check what time you reach" I read this msg this morning and i was like !!!!!! Went to meet others at Jurong East MRT platform.. AheeeM ( i was the first to reach) Asked them whether someone msged them such a msg in such a tone, they said no NONONONO. Do i look like i will be late? I doubt so.

Her msg would have sounded nicer like " hey gal=] Remember that there is sana tml and do not be late=]" Her original msg sounds as if she is controlling me. I cannot do anything about it though.

Sana was okie. Like teaching about drug abuse and those stuffs. I saw someone and was reminded of my past. Cannot stop thinking about it even though it is already three years. I really cannot stand it. Whenever i go to those cluster events or whatever i will see it. Sana and Yeah. Cannot stand it.

a nice story

2006-01-18T05:50:00.000-08:00

I am here to write a story. A lame but sad one indeed.

It was the first day of school for a girl, A. She was carrying a huge bag containing all the textbooks she had. It was raining and thus she had to walk upstairs to her classroom. She found out that her classroom was in the 6th level and thus put a long face. Girl B saw her long face and thus help her. Girl B climb the stairs behind Girl A and help her to lift her bag up to lessen the load for Girl A. Girl A was very appreciative of Girl B. At the 3rd level, Girl B decided to talk about something to break the silence. However Girl A did not respond at all. At the 5th level Girl B was angry with Girl A for not responding. Thus she decided to let go her hand off Girl A's bag. Girl A fell behind and hit her head on the floor. Still she did not talk. It was found out that Girl A was deaf.

Nice isn't it? Helping one through, and when one is already reaching their destination, make them fall because of miscommunication.

Btw I am not a sadist.

happy

2006-01-13T18:04:00.000-08:00

Hehe a long time since i have updated. I am happy nowadays=] Especially after the orientation camp. I love the orientation camp. it's like even if i only did night duty, i like it!! haha it's not about the night duty i like. It's about the people in school that i like about!!!

I am very happy
1) Even though i have to rush to school for orientation camp after tuition
2) Even though i do nothing but see if the sec 1s went above the 4th floor and asked them to be quick if they went to the toilet
3) when i was rushing for my train and a person stands infront of me blocking me
4)when i donate my 20 cents for the flag day thing.
5) i slept fot the most of 3 hours.

I do not regret going to the orientation camp at all=] Thanks for the care and concern. I appreciated it=]

I do not even mind if I am stripped of my rank now=] I am just happy. Too happy to care about my rank. Sorry to those to whom i promised to write an entry in my blog about the reasons for Captain Jesse wanting to strip ranking thing. I am about to complete the entry but so sad that i went for the orientation camp and i do not want it to make myself sad now! I am really happy!!!

Actually the reason for stripping my rank is simple. It's just that i thought i cannot make it for the orientation camp and i asked a sec 3 girl to replace me without telling the officers. They see this act of mine as not giving them the respect they needed. And thus wanted to strip of my rank and do not allow me to go for NYAA. When i heard this i was like -.- Then i found out that we are only doing night duty and thus i can make it. I went and i am like hahahahah.

And also

MY birthday party!!
Thanks to all those who made it possible=] Thanks to all who chou kong and came. I like my presents alot. Really a big big THANKEW. It's like, I did not have a camera and did not take any photos. But i will remember everything that had happened. The cake, the water bomb game, the cheese hotdogs, so on and so on. Special thanks to Sijin and Yanmei who came earlier to help make the water bombs. I love 407 totally man=] And the GB girls too=]

My actual birthday is approaching too.

407 let's work hard for next week k?? So many tests. LOL.

was asked

2005-12-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

It's going to be a new year in just a few hours time=] I'm not going to any countdown or wherever. I wanted to go BADLY, however i rejected the offer. I regretted.

Anyway, in the morning i went for dentist appoinment with my mum. My braces are now yellow. Then went to bugis to the Guan Yin Temple. As today is the 15, the people there was like "WAH SO MANY!!!". Bugis is a nice place, especially on the street which the Temple is at. Then wanted to find a "not-so-long-queue" toilet. Decided to go to Fu Lu Shou and went to the toilet. They charge 20 cents per person. Then passed by this shoe shop and bought a white slipper for myself. Finally i got a proper slipper. My slippers are all very slippery. Whenever i walk in the rain i would have this fear of falling down.

Went back to Clementi and Slack around. Gor-EE(hokkien) and Eugene was there too. Then it rained like SIAO. Was SLACKING. But when my mom asked Eugene whether i helped, he said, " YES YES" Haha. Took a free cab to IMM with Gor-EE and Eugene and ate la mien for dinner. Further proceeded to Giant, DIY shop and bla bla bla. Took free shuttle bus back to JE station. And now I am home.

Due to boredom, I am writing the whole day of event.

Say Happy New Year Qiyuan.
CELEBRATE CELEBRATE HAPPY NEW YEAR CELEBRATE. I'll never forget this song. Who in Nan Hua would?

I am having post dental appoinment pains.

qiyuan OAI.

2005-12-28T23:16:00.000-08:00

haha. being simple is the best thing of all.

Sec 1 registration
It's quite fun. I am doing the tour thing. Brought around 5 families for tours. Ya it's nice to see our new juniors! =] And also the anxiety of parents=] A very touching image.

Eason qian chang hui
went there with stella. Eason was like late la. By 1 and a half hour. When eason was singing, he smiled at stella and pointed at her asking her to sway. haha. She swayed. Den stella was that happy that she jumped all over the place. I mean really jumped, even at the train station. everyone was looking at her.

dui bu qi xie xie!!!!! nice song=]

Next year will be a nice year.

blah

2005-12-25T21:30:00.000-08:00

I hate people who forgets their roots and believes. Doing things just because their friends are doing it or just because the SUPERIORS are doing it. I PUI PUI PUI. Quite disappointed. =[

I went shopping yesterday at bugis with my mom. Saw yiting and family and weixin and mother. So ciao.

i cannot stop thinking about it.

campus superstar.YY

2005-12-19T20:47:00.000-08:00

I went to the whatever website to check. BLAH. That ~~celebrate girl~~ did not get into the top 20.

I was quite disappointed =[ I even begged Jan for her signature.

Some photos of the contestants...

This guy, the one above. he is from some manj---- secondary school. He's the one peifen say very cute wan la. He is Hong Yu Yang=] just a difference of a syallabus From Hong Jun Yang. I predict that he would be the winner!=]

Then this guy. Peicai secondary. HE TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE LIN JUN JIE.

HAIZ. why dint the celebrate gal get in.

GREAT

2005-12-16T23:12:00.000-08:00

Been doing GREAT these few days. Yeah at least i have some motivation to do my hw. But a lot is still left=] haah. And there is definately room for improvements.=]

Yeah had drill test today. Was like everyone also did not practice at home and all those stuffs. Including me=\ I passed out of luck anyway. Those who failed don be sad=] It's okie. It's not that you are lousy it's just the officer expectation too high. CUZ we are from nan hua. lol.

YEAH. i'm a chicken little fan=]

My cousin had an admission to anderson JC. yeah yeah yeah yeah.

Hope that one day i would also have an admission to a good jc=]

I love tuition at Mr mutti place. It's so hilarious.

My birthday is approaching. 16 jan lol.

Trust me. Being busy is good as you will not have time to think of sad things.=]

blah

2005-12-12T00:38:00.000-08:00

Have u noticed something about my blog? My title would everytime be either haha, hehe, wow, blah, or something that is lame.. I cannot think of anything else.. That is why.

I went for GB today. Drill review session- only 9 pathetic people went as it was not compulsory. We practised drill as there is going to be a drill test this saturday. Wonder how tough it will be. lol. If it were to be in school i think more people would have gone. It's at kovan!!!=] It seems that i am the only girl who wrote the testimonial to go to northern Ireland. but the trip is like august. how am i suppose to go when i have o levels.

Yeah i cut my hair yesterday. It's like the same hair style. But it is quite short.

Yeah Yixin and casuarine is at australia now. heard it's quite fun.

BB is having their charity giftbox. I think our school bb is at jurong point today.

I do not have any motivation in my life. i just merely slack through my sec school life.

When will it be the day when i wake up and realise that i am THAT fat and THAT stupid.

2005-12-07T21:33:00.000-08:00

Well I am finally back to blogging.

I wonder how much homework have others done.

I just completed A math that's all.

Still left with alot.

Holidays are just like holidays=]

It's december now=] december the 8th.

well

2005-11-24T18:36:00.000-08:00

I went to orchard with casuarine yesterday.. Within our 5 hours trip to orchard, we were hounded by 2 "oh so kind volunteers" asking for friggin donations.. "oh so kind" refers to NOT KIND AT ALL.And please they are NOT volunteers. They just want to earn money. They get commision!!! Do u all understand???? This is their source of income. They use the name of charity to earn money.. How useless they can be.. i PUI PUI PUI. They just cannot have a decent way of earning money. I PUI PUI PUI. The first one was a Malay teenager asking for donations. Wearing clothes which are not cheap at all. holes can be found everywhere in her face.. above her eyebrows, her ears(alot). IF U REALLY CARE FOR CHARITY.. den don pierce so much holes, don wear branded stuffs and give them your money. The second one really pissed me off.. HE IS A CHINESE.. AN INSULT TO OUR ANCESTORS who are so hardworking, using no shortcuts in their life.. in other words, jiao ta shi di. Freak him. When we did not stop to listen to him.. U know wad he did?? HE SCOLDED VULGARITIES!! FREAK LA.. He scolded "cha*che*b*e"

I urge you all NOT to donate to these people. If they really sound pathetic. THEN ask them in their faced.. How much of my money i donated will be given to the poor people/orphans.. itself.. If 100% den u donate.. If not, I suggest u make a trip to the nearest homes around your neighbourhood and give them the money. Won't cost you much. It's better than giving your money to those suckers.

haaa

2005-11-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

I'm here to update again. I"M BACK FROM CAMP. After weeks of planning and discussion to preparing and buying logistics, I'm finally back from camp..

Camp is fun. Camp is fun. I am quite tired though. I reach home at about 330 today and immediately i slept until 7. I was confused at the time when i woke up initially. I thought it is the next day in the morning. Stupid isn't it.

First day. Let me think. Well the gals had banner making first. Banner making was quite a disaster for me=\ We were being some sort of scolded for helping the gals to throw the rubbish bag away, helping them pick litter and also for lousy instructions i gave.( i did not prepare any instruction I did not type it out like someone did). yeah yeah. Then had communication.. My station game for communication is Mind Your Body Language. It's okie overall.=] Questions like gloves really test the gals. Then for talent, my station is visual and spatial and musical. HAHA.. It's quite hard for the gals to guess the word puremilk too. The girls were like. "qiyuan why your station everytime NEED to draw one huh?? U like art soo much huh?" Actually i got a c5 for art in sec 2 i think. During the time when the gals were having discussion.. I went to NTUC and bought $100+++ worth of food stuffs. SO HEAVY. Then we slept. DINNER I HAD PRAWNS HAHAHA. Given by st johns=]

Second day=] Had UNITY. Well the station that i'm in charge of is called MAZE of fortune. SHEESH. My mazes which i created were just to easy for the gals.. So had to create some harder ones for them. LOL. Then we set of to sembawang. Hoping to use the sembawang park for FIGHT. However it rained non-stop. We had to do it indoors which were no difference from doing it in school. Except that in school st johns is around camping with us, In the campsite other GB gals and BB boys are camping with us. The bb boys are having their HQ event which is like soem leadership training camp. And i saw them playing water gun in the rain. lol. So for FIGHT my station is taboleh tahan. Teams were supposed to use their feet to lift up the pail of water. Well. Charmaine's group actually overturned the whole pail of water and the floor was wet. And charmaine fell down from the stairs as it was slippery. Then had to clean up the mess.. this this this that that that. then had the finale game which was the giant slide. The gals were like SO FAST!! Din expect them to be that fast. But i think the slide was easier as compared to the one in the nco camp. Well had outdoor cooking later. I think i really don like outdoor cooking. The last camp in pulau ubin.. Oudoor cooking was like the worst moment of the camp. This camp is about the same too. Shall not specify. i just know that when we are having outdoor cooking, i'm always in a bad mood. After that was supposed to be the WIN skit. However the gals did not hear the instructions properly. And this this this, that that that. Got scolding from officer jesse and stand still in the moonlight for 40 mins. My feet was like. Wa!! why so pain $*#@#. Den got into the bus.. and went to nan hua.

hahahahah.. Then sleep. At 2 in the morning. Hui Wen, Yili and me woke up. Just to wait for the holy moment at about 315 to conduct the fire drill.. Gals took 2 mins and 35 secs to evacuate their bunks.. St johns had their fire drill at the same time with us.. Or u can say that.. We listen to their whistle say that it is our fire drill. We had full strength=] but someone is missing in st johns. so a search is conducted. 12 gals from GB also joined in the search. Imagine 3 plus in the morning U go walking around the school la.. Opening all the toilet doors and checking every cubicle. And also need to check the dry riser thingy. And also. The school don on their corridors light at 3am in the morning. So they had to use their torch.. Those don have wan.. walk in the dark lor.. lols. Finally the lost gal was found.. and we went back to sleep. Heard that the gals did not dare to sleep. as they thought there was more fire drill to come. Yeah i told them, " 2 mins 35 secs is quite slow, next time, if there is a next time PLEASE be faster" They thought that we would blow the whistle any time. So to be faster, the wore their shoes to lie down. But sad to say. there is only one fire drill. DEn sleep

THIRD DAY Then at ard 645 in the morning i was awaken by dunno who. Wa!! then look at the time 645?? liew.. the gals were supposed to gather at 630 in the cantten for morning exercise. Den 645 i still at bunk.. Quickly huiwen and i brush our teeth and went down to prepare breakfast. Yili did not even brush her teeth as she was in charge of morning exercises and she woke up at645 TOO. LOL. Then had this this this, that that that. Singspiration those stuff. Then had cheer comp and skit too. Yixin's and clara's was good... hahaha.. Then had area cleaning at the canteen.. The gals were like sian diao.. Need to clean the whole canteen. lol. They were like tired and all that. lol. Then break camp.. We heard the command bersu rai.. Quickly turn right, march three steps and cheered and cheered.. We were so happy that the camp has ended. lol.

CRAZY

2005-11-19T00:03:00.000-08:00

Well today. I went to bishan junction 8 to give my support to stella in the campus superstar. Well, it turned out that her audition is tomorrow. So i am going tomorrow too=] Well it's nice to go out with a long time no talk friend. Yeah. I stayed there for a while to listen to their singing. THERE is this pair of sister.. They BOTH GOT IN. How nice and magical=] Anyway. I found out that the campus superstar is supposed to be in uniform all the time.. I MEAN EVEN IN TELEVISION.. It's still in school uniform.. I was like HUH??? haah.. I really hoped that stella could make it through tomorrow=]

Monday's camp. It'll be a good learning experience for everyone in GB. Hope that we the GB gals could really bond together. I got back my money for paint.=] Well in some part in our life we may be pissed. As in really pissed. It's like you really contributed alot REALLY alot. And in the end the results is not what you want. Or u hate lateness and someone's late by an hour, u'll definately be pissed. Or u have you own beliefs, but others around you just keep on spreading their religion, you will be pissed. We will have to be good and don be pissed. I'm lame=[

End of entry byebye.

HELLO

2005-11-16T21:40:00.000-08:00

You will know that I would rather spend my time doing stupid thing rather than to study when u read this entry. LOL

WEll... I changed my display pic=]

Isn't it nice?? I find it very cute=]

These days, i have been busy with camp preparations. Really lotsa stuff to do. There is still the 30- hour project to do.

Meechay is back to her hometown. leaving us back to plan and execute the camp=]

These days, i always use this phrase. "ok i will shut up" And i do not know why i use it. It just came automatically out of my mouth.

The shanghai people are back. JIAJING BOUGHT ME A 3PM PLAYER. lol. If u believe.

I've started a bit on my hw. I bet some people have already finished.

I'm goin to be sec 4 next year.

I'm so excited.

yeah yeah

2005-11-11T01:55:00.000-08:00

I think.. this entry is going to be long.

Holidays is just as busy as other school days. We had our class chalet=] My first class chalet i've been to. I did not sleep for 20 hours, around there. This is my record. Compare it with yanling's and vivien's, 20 hours is nothing. They din sleep for 48 hours or so. Chalet was fun really fun and nice. Me and xinyi went bathing when it was like 1am in the morning. And i managed to wash my hair with body soap and bathe my body with herbal essence=] I cannot tahan for when it was like 4 plus and i went upstairs and tried to sleep. Could not sleep in the first place. We were talking.. Then someone snored. It was jing jie's. Followed by jan then xinyi. Leaving me alone. So i tried to make myslef sleep. But the LOUD snores... somehow kept me awake for a while. and minutes later, i participated in the nice music. Yep. chalet is nice afterall. If without the complains from a person with an irritating voice, it would be nicer=] Complaining doesn't help at all, it just brings down everyone's mood. If u are not happy, do not complain, keep it to yourself. [= yeah i am happy.

My holidays are also bombarded with tuitions and remedials. IN school or at home. I'll be sec 4 next year. THE O LEVELS YEAR. I'm starting to like tuitions and remedial. I don't know why. But somehow, i like, or don find it that boring afterall.

I had GB today, firstly met at kovan MRT station, then walked to HQ. As usual there are latecomers. As usual they got some sort of scolding. Then had icebreakers. We played some old games like dog and bone and the squeezing into the newspaper one. Then had drill. Learned a new command which is homad kekenan. It sounds funny without a homad ending it. Then had badgework. Some good family badge we are getting. Officer Jesse sort of reprimanded us for our attitude in GB. And it is not fair to those who have healthy attitudes. Those who always pon parade saying that they are sick without a medical certificate, or for any other lame reasons, or din bring this din bring that. These people have their names recorded down. SO they are unable to have opportunities to go for events like some overseas trip or lead in anything. Whereas those with HEALTHY attitude will have the opportunities. At that point of time I really had this question in my mind which i wanna say it out loud. which is

"Are christians given the opportunities or the non-christians if they have the same attitude towards GB? Is this what we call biased??"

I knew the answer and i believe you people know too. It is obvious. Officer Jesse also pointed out a point. She said that BB is going for lot's of activities and this and that. But GB cannot. And she said that it is because, WE THE GB GIRLS have a lazy attitude in school. She also said that we are always complaining to the school about how tough GB is. That is the reason. But have anyone ever wondered why our girls would complain to the school? I believe most complains goes to the school during GB fortnight. Which is the fundraising week. Compare our fundraising with the BB's fundraising and you will know why we are complaining. We had to stay back almost everyday, no time to study, no time for computers, no time for television.

In the end, till now, we did not even get back our money. Our material costs. Of course we would be complaining. "where is our money?", we would ask. Material cost is not little. It's expensive. Considering that our company earned $5000 plus. Obviously there must be a cost price. In the end who is angry? The parents of the girl. An average amount of pocket money would be $30 per week for a girl. If cost price for materials would amount up to $100 per squad. Who is going to pay? Obviously their parents.

I shall stop or i'll get reprimanded. TO all nanhuarians OUT THERE. teachers are reading our blogs!!

Ok. all anger vented out. SO Nice. I love this feeling. AHHHHHH~

There is this part on today's parade which i liked the most. Which is the three essential As in a family. Actually i only remembered one. haha. Which is Actions to avoid to have a harmonious family. I must avoid being lazy=]

YEAH holidays are busy.

qiyuan is smiling. how about you?

FUCK OFF

2005-11-06T16:14:00.000-08:00

PISSED OFF BY GB MAN.

FUCK LA. AS IF I VERY FREE LIKE THAT. ACTUALLY I AM NOT PISSED OFF BY GB ITSELF. IT'S THE PEOPLE IN IT. FREAK U THINK IT'S FUNNY SHRIEKING OFF RESPONSIBILITIES LIKE THAT? U ARE THE ONE SUPPOSED TO BUY PAINT!! AND NOW.. WE ARE ALL MEETING UP TOGETHER TO BUY PAINT FOR U JUST ALL BECAUSE U DID NOT BUY IT. U THINK IT'S FUNNY?? U THINK IT'S FUNNY???? WAD STUPID EXCUSE U HAVE. "I WANTED TO BUY PAINT YESTERDAY. BUT I DO NOT HAVE MONEY.. WHEN MY PARENTS COME BACK THE SHOP IS CLOSED." AN IDIOT WOULD DEN BELIEVE SUCH A STUPID EXCUSE. FRIGGIN LIAR. STOP ACTING AS IF U ARE OH SO GOOD.

EARLY IN THE MORNING MY DAY IS JUST MADE BAD BY GB.

haha

2005-11-03T07:04:00.000-08:00

Well I am smiling, how about you??

smile=]

Haha.. this holidays are really busy. As stated in the previous entry which contain my whines and complains. lol. Well it did not turn out that bad either. The watoto thing is a children choir from Africa. They are quite nice. Annual camp planning turned out nice too=] But there is more to go, more to plan, more to do. =] BUT I am HAPPY=] Just happy.

307 are having class chalet now. I doubt i have time to go anyway. There is still tuition tomorrow=] Maybe saturday I'll make it.

I'm happy when I am not tied down. Rather than waiting, I'm finding=] this sounds happier isn't it?

JAN I UPDATED

wth

2005-10-31T05:11:00.000-08:00

Seriously. I am overwhelmed by the fact that i have to go to three places on Hari Raya Puasa. CRAZY.

Firstly TUITION. From 6-8 I was ok. go tuition go tuition la. It's quite fun anyway. I learn a lot from tuition.

Secondly it is a public holiday. Therefore my family would have time to accompany me. It is only during the holidays and sundays that our family could sit down together and have a proper dinner. We agreed to eat after 8.

Thirdly there is this watoto thing.
GBHQ need your help as usherers on WATOTO concert this Thursday 3 Nov and you need not attend the make up parade this Friday as such.

Details

Meet: 3pm Tanjong Pagar MRT
Attire: GB National T-shirt and Name Tag and Jeans and Shoes
End-Time: 5pm

THIS IS CRAZY. My tuition is at a new place and i need time to find the place. Yeah. Wish that the HQ be abnormal and release us early. And i would be clever enough to travel to Yishun and find the place in such a short time!

It's no use complaining. All complains would not be heard.

I was happy in the morning, during the exam, In the noon. In the afternoon. In the evening. I was smiling all the way. But i am not happy after reading my mail. Knowing that I cannot enjoy deepavali and hari raya puasa. Which is a school holiday and a public holiday. double holiday. sad.

Please put yourself in my shoes. I have my say, my feelings, I do not live for you. I am QIYUAN. Not your maid. Maids even have right to say no to what they do not want to do. What about me, worse than a maid.

wow

2005-10-27T00:39:00.000-07:00

haha.. I shall take back my previous upon hearing my report book remarks. lol.

I am really surprised by the last sentence.

SHE HAS PUT IN EFFORT IN HER STUDIES

When i saw this last sentence i was like what? When did i ever put in effort in my studies.

Well I got back my report book. My results was even worse than my Mid year. But i still remain my class position=] My average was 59.9. Was wondering why wouldn't they round up=/

Seriously i do hate. I hate people with an irritating voice. I hate people who act as if they know everything. I hate people who thinks that her/his father car is the best car ever And saying bad comments about other people's car. I hate people who said that she/ he had put in effort in her/his studies and did not do well and whine and whine. I hate people who complain. I hate people who uses vulgarities thinking that he/she is cool. I hate unloyal people. I hate I hate I hate. Just like yanling, i hate desperados too.

Sometime i love too. I love chocolates. I love food. I love good friends. I love tuitions=] I'm lame.

Well. O levels is approaching.

not nice

2005-10-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

I cannot help but blog about this..

Scenario:
A teacher walking down the row to check the attire of students. Suddenly the teacher just stop and looked at me. The teacher pulled out my shirt with all his/her might. And finally the teacher asked me to tuck in, claiming that i was tucking out. All the way in.

Am i not tucking in in the first place? Obviously i was not tucking right in. I was like the rest. Tuck in then pull out some la. Why must it always be me? I had this "teacher pulling my shirt out" experience at least twice already. Ridiculous isn't it.

I just checked my mail. Well there is parade this friday... Full uniform... no comments. O levels is just a week away.

Nothing to blog about.

sorry for the lack of updates

2005-10-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

haha.. i've seen my tag board.. Due to the request of Ang Xin Yi aka ---- --- ---- I have decided to update my blog. And to Yanling: i agree with Xinyi.. Sec school life with Xin Yi is better. lol.

I've been really busy these few days. Even though it's after exams, i am really busy. My day would be revolving around Intensive Chinese tuition in school or outside school. But wad to do. I am the lousiest in chinese afterall, in my class. Chinese and Chinese and Chinese. O levels is approaching. 1 subject for this year. Other subjects next year. haha.

I had GB today. Well it's sorta different. i do not know. compared to last year. It's just different. But i sort of missed drill. Drill is fun. Drill is nice. Games was fun too. We had scavenger hunt. nice game. HAHAHHA.. The forfeit for the last squad.. EAT GRASS.. Meechay had a hard time. Imagine their own squad member being the game master. ASKING their own squad to eat grass. Well. haha.. No offence. The other activities during the parade, I do not miss.

My exams result sucked like hell.. I failed A math and Physics. Till now i still do not understand why i failed physics. It was my most well prepared subject. And normally i did not fail. I admit i did not try my best. I always thought that someone would be lousier than me and thus i did not put in my best effort. That someone juz did not exist in the Chinese paper.

Suddenly i love to fold things. Origami in other words.

Suddenly i bought four coloured pens. Cause i thought that it would be nice if i have coloured words for my bio notes.

Well.. Netball has two wonderful coloured t-shirts!! it's green and orange. it's so nice.

haha

2005-10-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

Well I'm back to blog!!

Haven been blogging for this while due to end of year exams. Well it hasn't ended yet. But everyone seems to be relaxing now.. Well.. wad is a weekend for? haha..

My end of year was a disaster..

Amath: very hard.. impossible to do. The setter is out to kill.
Geog: I did the account for the growth of the settlement WRONGLY.. I read is as distribution of settlement.. Den i did not really study too
Emath: it's okie.. Paper two seems a lot harder.. but paper one was okie.. I may fail or pass..
Chemistry:very hard ar!! How to do!! Chemical calculations is forever a problem to me.
Chinese: the passage was to chim for me to understand
Biology: it's okie..; I really did not study much for this!
English:it's okie.. I got half an hour to do summary but the time was still not enough!
ss: complete failure!

Well i'm still left with physics. My only hope for an A.. haha.

Something happened to me this week.. Guess wad i saw my long lost primary school friend! Stella Gu Shi Ta. lol.. She is juz like the way she was last time.. juz as tall.. The pattern she tok.. All same man.. We were so happy to c each other..

Friendship in primary school was much more better in secondary school.. For example.. If u see ur pri sch fren.. U wud be happy and talk about everything under the sun.. and when u see your sec 1 friends.. U do not even noe wad to tok abt.. Primary school friendships are purer. Much more purer.

After the EOY exams.. Sad to say there is O levels chinese.

eoy eoy eoy

2005-09-23T01:17:00.000-07:00

Long time since i updated again as EOY is already approaching. Well.. Some photos for your eyes..

camp group photo..

camp fire performances

the crab which someone caught during our kayaking expedition. haha. Notice that one "hand" of the crab is much much larger than the other.

Today had a nice time.. Student's planning session.. Was basically sitting tru out at the hall from 11 to 1. haha.. Some ideas i think are quite good like the starbucks and coffee bean idea.. Imagining every nanhuarian taking coffee out of the school.. It is just so amazing.

Had free lunch provided by the school to mark everyone of our school is eating together.. This marks an end in our 88th anniversary celebration.. I miss cultural potpourri.. I regretted not goin for the cultural night and also our 88 dinner. Guest of honour. PM Lee. I miss family day. I MISS CHEER COMP AND MUSICAL..

HAHA.

WOW..

2005-09-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

Well i guess it has been quite sometime since i updated.. There are certainly a lot of things to update..

`Firstly there is this "i am still a kid" craze in my class now. We would play games like heart attack, london bridge is falling down, aeiou mangali loves you, Mr wolf, Zhong ji mi ma, Bingo, pepsi cola 123, almost now and den. It is NICE to play the childhood games. these all started cuz that freaking jia jing wanted to play pepsi cola 123 in the first place, and we continued playing other childhood games. WELL.. Jan Sum said that i was spastic on her blog when I was playing heart attack.. I do not know why I am so slow.. WELL JAN.. U are not any better k?? Ur zhong ji mi ma.. ai yo.. Everytime tio you lor..

`Secondly it is Friday today!! Had parade. Parade was nice as it was short! Real short.. We had games and juz a few drill. It is also lantern festival today for our school. I wud wanna go!! I shud have helped out in care force or even in GB To help do duty. How good is it if i can stay back. To look at the moon and eat moon cake. drink tea and PLAY WIF FIRE!! WAH so nice lor.. I used to play wif fire when it is mid autumn festival. even though the fire very hot.. It is nice! I am not invited as u can see.. Only the sec 1s and 2s are invited. And also Nan hua primary school kids came too. Wa how nice it wud be to play wif the children. As u can see i am deprived of childhood.

` Thirdly. there is some minor changes in class these few days. Well.. It seems real minor but i seem real happier. I do not know why. The fact that u did not bother abt me din really affect me that much. I cannot deny that it did not affect me. It does. I tink i am used to it. With you Sometimes neglecting me during recesses and lunches. And you jus went out without asking me whether i would wanna go. Wif u jus being so close to everyone, I sometimes do not know who am i to you. You jus neglect me as and when you like. And the problem is that you are too friendly. Too friendly that i often feels neglected. But nevermind changes are for us to cope!

`Fourthly, there is also this ricola Craze in our class. Everyone is eating ricola. haha. Yanmei said that she has a lot at home and she brought for us! how nice of her. Thanks yan mei. And it is always good to recycle. Therefore...... Benjamin came up wif this ricola man made from a ricola box! Well I do not have the pictures now. maybe on the later post i will get the pic of it. And today I found an empty ricola box lying on the floor, wif the help of benjamin and jan, we managed to make a ricola woman!! wa.. so fun.. Yanling and i was teasing Xuezhe. yanling was like.. Asking xz wad he wants for his b day. Den i gave him the sexy Ms ricola to let have her to pei him for his lonely b day. hahaha.. These few days. I do not know why, we keep teasing xue zhe. Singing the "wo she bu de ni" song to him when he was splitting his table wif *AHEM* during physics lesson.. hahaha...

` Fifthly. MY NUTELLA BREAD WAS STOLEN TODAY. I gave that stealer a few slaps on her arms. CONTINUOUS HARD SLAPS. LOL.

` sixthly.. EOY is comin up.. And i have to study.

lot's of stuffs

2005-09-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

Well I guess this post is not going to be short. It is going to be lengthy.. A lot of things to update about..

camp

Camp was generally fun and funny. The fun part was of course all the activities and the funny part was of course of those funny boys. Well I like every activity about the camp.. The activity i liked most is the activity which i do not have the ability to do.. Which is the challenged ropes course.. Here is the picture of the obstacle which i was not able to do..

This is juz a sketch of it.. well the tyres and the planks are really high up.. Firstly i will have to Climb up to poles(brown in colour) and stand on the platform and reach out for the tyres and later the plank and the tyre again and later the plank and finally to the plat form and then climb down... This is the standard procedure.. HOWEVER.. I was stuck at the first tyre.. like this:

my hands was holding tightly on the ropes My legs were bent.. I heard voices to ask me to keep my legs straight and shift my hand higher up on the rope.. I tried.. BUt i couldn't My hands was trying to shift up but it kept sliding down.. the ropes was too slippery.. I tried really hard to push myself up but i was TOO HEAVY and i could not.. Funny isn't it?? Finally the instructor let me down.. lol.. wif the dunno wad harnest tingy.. lol.. yeah this is the best part of camp... I love sec 3 adventure camp.. everything was wonderful.. The time for each activity.. The food was great.. Also sufficient time was given us to eat and bathe.. I hate camps where we have to bathe within a short time.. And camp wif yucky food.. lol..

B'day celebration

Well juz right after my camp.. It is my dad's b day.. I do not have any pictures of the celebration. But the celebration was fun.. Everyone was happy.. It's my first time seeing my Ah gong so happy.. He usually do not come for such celebrations.. He always isolates himself.. But He came and he actually stayed for quite a long time!!! He usually will go back after a while and he really seemed happy.. Well I am happy for him too.. A lot of people came.. Ard 150 people bahx.. Family members and my dad's fren. Nice isn't it.. And the food was nice too.. Pasta, sushi, sashimi, fried chicken, spring rolls, nonya kueh, samosa, crab, bee hoon, wines, beers, and other drinks. And of course there is the b'day cake la.. haha.. I'm happy of course!! I seldom gather wif my paternal side cousins and this is a great time to gather!!! But after wad i heard... Abt the cost of all the food and all.. I was utterly shocked.. It cost abt.. $4000??? I was like HUH.. Wa liew so ex ar.. But after som discussion wif my dad.. It was not ex after all.. As people come wif presents and ang baos.. And people go back wif a smile.. And it's worth it afterall.. Especially when Ahgong was able to stay so long and was able to see him smile..

Some other stuffs

Well.. It's hols now.. today is wednesday.. The last day which i have to go back to school!! yeah..

haiz..

2005-08-31T03:08:00.000-07:00

Wad can i say.. I read my mail.. And was like.. HAIZ.. shall blog abt this email thing in the later part..

Today i went out wif xin yun and casuarine.. Watched the movie.. Drink Drank Drunk.. Quite nice.. but such magical stories only happen in movies.. HAIZ.. Den Slack here and there.. Do nothing.. But heard another version of the stella rumour.. here is it:

Weiru is angry or sth like that.. Therefore,

This part is in sms form.

WEIRU:F*ck U la

Stella:come f*ck me la

then.. they decided on the time and place to F*ck..

And f*cked..

lol.. funnie version.. Wonder if it is true.. Let me tok abt school now.. Only the sec 1s are that enthu to go and perform on stage for the teachers.. Only the sec 1s and the class 203.. Anyway.. the sec 1s performance is not that nice.. In fact it was like.. eeeeee.. There is this pink top girl wif her white skirt.. And she pleated her hair like some shit.. And her group is like trying to seduce guys la.. KAOZ.. Skirt so short.. At there voice over only.. lol..

OKie.. time for the email thing which i mentioned juz now.. I have to say that i hate being forced to do something which i do not like.. But sad to say i have to do it.. it's not that i am scared or anything.. It's juz i am not prepared for it.. Obviously I am physically unfit.. Wad is the use of letting us do so many activities.. When wad we or I get back is just some laughters From others and/or letting myself feel inferior.. When i am already inferior.. Suck.. Again.. I am supposed to be POSITIVE.. YEah.. It's my fault in the first place to be physically unfit.. HAIZ..

Anyway.. Yeah.. It is my mindset and my fault.. Cannot blame others.. But.. I jus have that sucky feeling up on my head again.. HAIZ..

Got back my progress report card.. It's like.. LOUSY.. Guess that not everyone did as well as their last common tests.. I failed my A math.. 22 upon 100.. How nice.. I did not get as much As as compared to the last common test too.. Yeah i suck.. I keep saying that there are others lousier then me.. And my dad will go.. "no people better then u meh"? lol. There are there are.. Friends around me can score as low as.. failing 6 out of 8 subjects.. And friends can score as high as getting 6 As and 2 Bs out of 8 subjects.. Yeah yeah.. I juz happen to be in the category nearer to the friend hu failed 6 out of 8 subs..

HAIZ..

PICTURES

2005-08-30T00:57:00.000-07:00

Dearest ANG XIN YI tot me how to post pictures.. here is my skill SHIFU..

Well.. this is my brother in a market in Australia.. He went there last year.. Wif his frens.. COOL..

This is some temple in Japan.. I was there k?? lol..

This is Dagu.. Melvin and claudia at japan.. In front of a maple leaf tree..

PRAY THAT IT WORKS..

woot

2005-08-29T02:10:00.000-07:00

hmm.. A lot of things happened nowadays.. Firstly Ms lau got married.. We are supposed to call her Mrs Thong now.. Read xinyi's blog to get a more detailed account.. her blog add is.. www.oatsarenotforeating.blogspot.com She was there you see.. I have to go for PRomotion And Dedication Service.. Which Means.. I AM A COPORAL... LOl.. Nothing to be proud off.. It's no difference cuz everyone is promoted.. It's like u are a coporal i am a coporal.. U r a lance i am a lance.. Wad is the diff.. lol.. The diff wud be U r a STAFF and i am a coporal.. But there is no such diff In ranks in GB No matter the performance level.. for now it is like that.. lol..

We tried to make Ms chng happy.. By calling her Mrs tan.. LOL... And she was.. HAPPY indeed.. However.. hahahaha.. She din wanna release us.. Until we called her Ms chng..

6 more weeks to End Of year exams.. I am totally sick.. haiz.. I do not noe wad to blog abt.. Juz that to tell u pp to look foward no matter wad..

well

2005-08-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since i updated again.. Was busy with common tests and all those stuffs.. I have a lot of things to say.. To post.. So i think this will not be a short post.. I will sincerely not do well for my common tests.. Cuz i did oni last minute work.. I will fail bio, a math , e math.. And chinese.. HAIZ.. I will not be able to get any A1s.. Cuz i did not study much.. Not like last time.. Where i study and memorise.. HAIZ..

I am not doing anything abt my attitude..I think the environment is not suitable for me to study..Especially in Nan Hua SEc.. Where so many activities are going on.. Every subject department willl give u something to do.. And class activities like cheer competition.. And also when ur CCA has also equal amount of things for u to do.. we already have so much things to do.. We are not from neighbourhood schools where the school dosen't organise such activities and workshops for us to go.. We have SOOO many workshops and activities organised by the school already. And these activities organised by the school.. IS probably Enough to develop us into leaders if we really wanna go for such activities.. Therefore.. Somthing is redundant.. U noe wad. it is not redundant in neighbour hood schools cuz schools don organise such activities.. HAIZ.. But it is really fun when u get stressed up over things and CRY AND CRY..haah

another thing.. Weilian won the superstar thingy. I think he is very strong and brave.. He is juz a blind man.. Imagine how is he going to sing.. When he cannot see the words.. He juz have to memorise tru hearing.. Isn't this going an extra mile..??? Imagine how is he going to walk onto stage when he cannot see.. He have to memorise the steps.. Isn't this also going an extra mile?? He is already physically disabled.. So please stop saying u hate weilian.. Cuz u din even call enough calls to junyang.. Or maybe even derrick.. Weilian has his own pool of supporters.. And this is definately a large pool.. Weilian is juz innocent..He is blind.. He has to go an extra mile in everything he do.. Juz imagine.. If someone is to throw an egg at him.. How wud he noe hu isit frm.. He cannot even give chase.. He would not have even noe that it is a egg that is thrown at him.. So he is juz innocent.. He is innocent.. He did not want to kick out the others.. It is his supporters that wants him to do so.. And those ARE not sympathy calls.. It is calls of admiration for weilian.. It is calls for encouraging weilian to do better.. It is calls that praise weilian for his courage.. IT IS NOT SYMPATHY CALLS..

OKie.. Anyway.. Other stuffs.. Class tee shirts.. WE got our class T shirt.. It is damn nice.. Of cuz we did not get it really easily.. There are conflicts because of class tee shirts.. Cuz.. our treasurer lost the money in the first place.. We had to pay 14 dollars for a shirt.. It is definately not her fault.. It is the theif's fault.. Mabbie it is partly her fault.. But she also did not want this to happen.. 200 dollars is not a small sum.. And we were thus sad that she lost the money.. And agreed to pay again at a lower price of around 7 dollars.. Cuz the total is 279 for the shirts.. And the thief stole 200 and left 79 for us.. How nice.. So the price is lower la.. We all agreed lor.. Since it is already printed out.. No one voiced out any dissentment at the point of time.. Then something happened in the middle of the night... A parent called Our form teacher.. And said we shud not have a class teee.. Cuz to ex bla bla bla.. N have to pay again bla BLA BLA.. And demanded a refund of her 14 bucks and say her child don wan the class tee.. And wif the pattern of our form teacher.. She is so frigginly stressed out by the class tee thingy.. And therefore.. spend her two bio periods nagging abt the class tee thingy.. And She nag until the english period.. And use the English teacher lesson to nag.. And this gives rise to alot of verbal arguments..

I am not saying that the paarent should not do this u see.. If got problems in paying this money.. Can nicely tell us and we help u pay la.. Her child's tee shirt is already printed out.. But i don see why there is a problem paying these money.. It is not much.. In total.. each person.. pays 21 dollars.. And i think it is certainly worth it.. As compared to Ralph Lauren jacket which costs $100 plus.. And a billabong wallet Which costs around 40 dollars.. I do not understand.. If these stuffs can be owned by the child.. Paying 21 dollars for a class tee shirt is juz peanuts.. PEANUTS I SAY.. This is then not a problem of not enuf money.. It is a problem of branded goods..

OK.. I am going to study for CME now.. HAHA.. beybye...

long time since i updated

2005-08-09T22:23:00.000-07:00

Izzit very long since i updated?? I am not sure.. I have alot of things to blog abt but I do not know where to start..

Firstly.. Common test.. Totally suck.. I hate it when i have to study.. HAIZ.. I've like sorta planned wadda study.. But in the end.. The plan failed.. I have not started AT ALL.. I have no motivation to study and I cannot sit still.. I can oni lay still.. That is.. SLEEP AND SLEEP.. HAIZ.. Today there is OP warehouse sales.. I wonder if i will be going.. Later still got dentist appoinment.. I wonder if i have time to study.. HAIZ..

Secondly.. 3o7 WON THE CHEER COMP.. We got SECOND.. We have won.. we have won.. We exclaimed loudly.. Thanks to everybody for making this happen.. Thank you jia jing and vivien for organising this whole thing.. Thank you dallan and jan for drumming and doing the stunts.. Thank you qiyuan and zoumei and sijin for buying the red socks(haah.. thanking myself).. Thank you Mrs lim for letting us have her precious english PERIODS.. YEAH!! den we got time to practice!! Thank you benjamin for letting us go his house n practise.. thank you for the dance steps.. Thank you xinyi for holding onto the lipstick coloured paper.. LOL.. Ur wallet and bag got lipstick le.. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR BEING SOO ENTHU.. We will rawk.. Juz like JAN.. I OSO WAN MY CLASS TEE.. Den every PE lesson we wear class tee.. WOW.. So nice.. How i wished we could do this cheer over and over again.. it's so nice.. But it is sad.. End of year is approaching.. And next year.. No more competitions as there is o levels.. hhaiz.. If there is any more competitions.. PLEASE.. let's jia you!!! =]]] Ms chng is our sunshine.. Hoon peck hoon ar!!!

Thirdly, as days goes by I am growing fatter and fatter.. I dunno why.. I seem to suffer from constipation and sometimes i seem to shit alot.. Kaoz.. wad is this.. HAIZ.. HAIZ.. I have no mood at all..

Fourthly.. I hate to say this but i have too.. Stupid idiotic bitch.. haiz.. I really hate her la.. At there act as if she very ke lian.. den people will say.. "aiyo.. U look veh stressed leh.. Jia you hor.." Den they will loook at me as if i am not abit of stressed and as if i am giving her the stress.. Kaoz.. Den at there act chio la.. Tink ur hair very nice isit.. So oily.. OiLY DIRTY FILTHY HAIR.. Knn.. At there already study le.. Still at there act stress.. Give that fuckin depression look.. Got good results also at there stress.. WAD IS THE FUCKIN PROBLEM WIF U??? And let me tell u that no one really like look at you.. And please... Don always jump into conclusion that they keep on tok bad abt u and all that.. CUZ u are not worth it.. And don ever gimme that fuckin depression look..

Fifthly.. I hate tuitions.. Cuz it sucks.. chinese tuition at bugis.. English tuition at admiralty.. When i am staying at bukit batok.. kaoz... I will have to spend lile 30 mins to travel to tuitions.. kaoz..

Sixthly.. I carn sleep nowadays.. I keep thinking of someone.. And it really suck...

things

2005-08-05T07:13:00.000-07:00

A lot of things are happening in school nowadays..

BAdminton interclass
For gals.. WE got first. YAnling was like.. We got second.. sounded really true.. haha.. but we got first anyway.. yea! But for guys.. I don tink we even participated..lol..

Musical..
We PUT IN ALOT OF EFFORT K?? but we did not win..

Tooth pick bridge competition..
haha.. We got 3rd i tink

class national day cheer competition.
We got into the finals!!! YEAH!!! haha.. anyway.. JIA you WE MUZ WIN!!!

THEFTS
a series of thefts happened.. HAIZ..

307.. Jiayou for cheer comp..

I did not go for parade today.. Cuz it sucks.. no la.. hehe.. I wen for national day marhin ting.. I suck at it la.. She me goin imbalance doin the slow marsh on monday.. haha..

haiz

2005-08-02T00:39:00.000-07:00

So well.. Common tests are approaching and i haven started on anything yet.. Thursday's class cheer competition.. We MUZ WIN.. We really must.. Things are turning out better nowadays.. But I am afraid.. Afraid that it will juz not be better anymore.. OR even turning worse.. I am really afraid................

I really shud start studying common test now.. And too much computers is bad for health.. So i GTG BYEBYE..

i juz wannabe normal

2005-07-30T21:58:00.000-07:00

i juz wanna be a normal gal..
leading a normal life..
It sucks when u see ur frens ponnin their cca..
And u can't(can i?)
It also sucks to see ur frens going out
And u can't(not even asked to)
It sucks to see ur frens going crazy over singers
When u don
As i said.
I don belong.
I am not normal.
Cuz i have too much responsibilities..
Responsibilities that i cannot live up wif
Why am i taking it up????

i am not shuang

2005-07-28T05:12:00.000-07:00

I AM NOT SHUANG CERTAINLY NOT SHUANG!!! CRAZY FREAKS LA.. JUZ SIMPLY ADD SOME MONEY IN THE LAST MINUTE FROM SOME OTHER PEOPLE NOT RELATED.. LAST YEAR OSO LIDDAT THIS YEAR OSO LIDDAT..

u ALL SHUD GET WAD I MEAN.. hmmps.. read it if it is visible.. If not don bother.. Stupid la.. Wad is the use la.. haiz.. I shud write an article abt this and post it up here.. U all muz keep the tag comin in.. Freaks..

Went to newater today.. Quite fun la.. Nice place.. to visit the newater plant..

Also.. today the musical tingy is out.. FREAKISH LA.. Guess hu is the WINNER.. 308.. wa kaox eh.. the judges blind isit.. 308.. singing the stupid shud all acquataince be forgot tune.. Wif some stupid lyrics which i as a piano 1st grader also can write la.. N the POP GOES THE WEASEL.. kaoss leh.. Their storyline is so freakish la.. Ours is like nicer.. Got jokes.. All that.. Our actors are nicer la.. Especially the "hairy" god mother.. And the bulies. Which is me and yan mei.. And ben did a wonderful job ask Singderalla la.. Kaoz.. Our script is better la.. We got dance stpes too la.. Which jan and dallan choeragraph(liddat spell?).. all so nice la..

NEVERMIND... 307 PEEPS.. REMEMBER THE THING WE DID DURING THE NEWATER TING.. WE WILL WIN AND WE MUZ WIN.. HAHA.. CHEER COMP.. JIA YOU.. After this musical i feel that.. we are more united.. And cheer comp.. We have wonderful ideas..

HAHA.. WE MUZ WIN..

SS TEST TML.. it is 8 42 now.. I am still in sch uni.. haven bathe.. haven anything..

TML STILL GOT PARADE AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

2005-07-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

heex.. I'm happy anyway.. As i had a good sleep last night.. Would like to show u people more abt my life..

here is it..

8-Jan
CCA Extravaganza Day( i was the one toking and toking.)
28-Jan
Welcome Party(welcoming our secs 1 GB junior)
4-Mar
Scavenger Hunt(at holland Village.. Quite fun)
18-Mar
Parents' Appreciation Night( i was the Emcee wif Daniel.. Paiseh man)
19-Mar
Awards Cereemony(juz some sian stuffs)
9-Apr
Resilience Trail( FUN.. But have to read exodus..(bible) SIan..)
7-May
Canoe STAR 1(fun but cannot go up the canoe after capsizing)
14-May
Canoe STAR 1(nice also my instructor is quite.. girlish though)
28-29 May
Dream On Camp(nice la.. At pulau Ubin)
11-Jun
Leadership Conference(bitta sian.. Cuz I was the oni one in the company in that topic)

So first half of the year i am doing this stuffs for my CCA.. Girls' brigade.. Other then weekly normal parades these are the stuffs i do.. Don think this is one day thing k?? like it needs preparation.. Like for resilience trail.. Need to read the bible first.. Need to learn all sorts of things like first aids.. Like Balloon sculpturing.. And the Parents' appreciation.. OF cus need la.. Cuz i am the emcee.. So wad is my point?? I dunno.. Up to u all to decide my conclusion.. It's nice la all this things.. It's nice..

Enough of GB.. And here come the stuffs
-i do not need to take bio test and my marks will not be affected.. hahaha..
-My class rocks.. 307.. haha.. Let us hope that we will be in the top three for our class musical.
-I failed my chinese.. 50 upon 110..
-I passed my chem retest.. Juz nice.. 12.5 upon 25.
-I have SS test on friday.

Like nothing else to say.. Juz wanna say that.. I do not like being the one u would approach when ur frens ignore u.. I don like the feeling.. Giving me false hopes that i can be one of ur bests fren again.. And there it goes.. U walked away. When i am not useful.. I don like this feeling.. Stop giving me false hopes..

haha.. As i said i am happy anyway..

haha

2005-07-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

Din update for quite a long time i think..

Well I was sick on on thursday and friday.. Din go to sch on friday though.. Feeling lazy lol.. Spend the whole day reading potter.. It's sorta stupid reading the end la.. The wadeva dumbledore drinking the green potion onwards.. The story seemed stupid from then on.. But the front was nice.. Esp when Harry is thinking of ginny.. haha..

Anyway.. Gb fortnight..I urge help us la.. $180 is not a small sum of money and we need to collect lor.. HAHA..

Gtg bye

haiz

2005-07-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

I have fallen into a trap.....

A deep deep trap..

HAUIZ

2005-07-17T23:27:00.000-07:00

Really got a lot of problems these days.. Listing out one by one..

Firstly.. Home work and tests.. It's like 3 tests this week and i haven even started studying.. Home work is something really really.. HAIZ.. I don even feel like doing.. Cuz I DUNNO HOW TO DO.. And sadly no one is here to teach me..

Secondly.. Friendships problem.. Frankly.. I do not know where i belong.. It's seems i do not belong to anywhere.. Whether in class or even in my CCA.. I simply do not belong.. Actually I belongED.. I once belongED.. But due to the fact that i spend too much time for myself for my CCA. and i do not share the interest of talking on the phone, and going out to slack. shopping.. Writing letters.. And even gossiping.. Playing netball.. I suddenly do not belong..

Thirdly.. Is my CCA.. Seriously.. I wan a united GB And not A GB divided into 4 parts competiting against each other.. And this Gb tingy is really taking up most of my time.. Not letting me pursue wad i really wan.. I also do not want the seniors and the juniors.. To detest one another.. And even between the juniors and seniors themselves.. I understand that they may really be irritating.. I certainly do.. Cuz.. I do get some stupid messages asking abt parade orders when it is obviously outside the GB room.. Or in the Gb website. And sometimes.. When it is not in the website or outside the GB room.. I'll also get people asking.. And i DO not even noe wad parade orders are there.. And they would keep on asking and asking.. Calling and calling.. Compromises have to be made.. Yeah.. But how?? I dunno.. It seems that our discipline have slacken a lot ya..

3 problems.. These three problems seem to be bugging everyone at these age also.. Frenship.. Studies and CCAs.. HAIZ..

But guess wad?? something cheered me up.. I quoted this from someone's blog.. JOyce neo.. Heex...

"i think Qiyuan is a wonderful squad leader.. She kept encouraging us during trekking.. Can see that she also very tired le but she kept asking us to jia you and didn't complain much"

Yeah.. Yeah.. But i shud be sorry for u all being tired and all those.. Cuz it was my idea to follow those BB bois.. And we ended up Walking a DAMN long way to the MUrai hut.. Heex.. Squad 4.. Jia you for fortnight la.. Remember compromises are to be made to Win the race..

suck

2005-07-16T03:43:00.000-07:00

Seriously.. I am doing nothing about my work.. Doing nothing abt tuition.. Doing nothing about my slacking attitude..

HAIZ..

I was late for tuition today.. Cuz i was using the computer.. HAIZ.. Y am I liddat??? I am forever with this lazy attitude of mine,., And when things do not turn out right. I'll cry and cry.. HAIZ..

Tml GOT english tuition.. Haven complete the hw.. SIANZ..

Well there'll be parade next friday.. And there is promotion and dedication service.. At dunno when.. Wa Kao eh.. Den there'll be preaching and preaching again.. Hope there isn't space for us to sit.. And we can don go.. It's not that I do not like GB.. It's juz that.. I don like preachings..

I have to find a way to change my attitude....

HAIZ..

FUCk

2005-07-14T01:42:00.000-07:00

FUck.. I like to use this words these days.. As I am really fuckingly pissed off by things.

Fuck FUCk Fuck FUck..

I am really pissed off by the fact that no one actually wanna stay back to do the notice board.. When she promised that she would.. And she called at the last minute.. Saying.. "tml got physics test I need to study".. AT THE LAST MINUTE.. And suddenly the responsibility of doing the notice board suddenly becomes the responsibility of muh squad.. It's not meant to be like that!!! I am juz doing a favour.. Helping OUT!! The notice board has gone blank for a lot of days already.. And because of the FUCKING 88 anniversary.. We HAVE TO DO UP THE NOTICE BOARD... FUCK those who tear it away.. And the squad on duty did not take the INITIATIVE to do the notice board again.. FUCK.. And Out of the sudden.. The doing of the notice board becomes the responsibility of JOANNE AND ME.. We had to go and buy the stuffs..

It's not AS IF U HAVE A PHYSICS TEST TML I DO NOT HAVE ONE TML.. i have CHINESE TEST.. Which is like more to study than yours.. And i have something to attend to at night. SO WAD DE FUCK??

FUCK.. Y DO I GET SO PISSED OFF BY THIS?? It's not that i am angry CUZ u din stay back.. I HATE UR FUCKING ATTITUDE.. I hate U Pushing responsibility......... And going off before anyone could catch u.. NOT EVEN SAYING A SORRY.. U are always like that.. GOING OFF WHEN U TINK THAT SOMETHING IS NOT SO IMPORTANT..

Come on.. It's not that I am not at all fuckingly streSSED LA.. I also have a squad like u to lead.. I also have problematic people in my squad la........ ARGHHHH.. I tink i have more problematic people in my squad la.. I noe GB fortnight veh stressed.... I noe I noe.... BUT Y ARE U ALWAYS GOING OFF WHEN THERE IS SOMETHING TO DO?? WHEN U THINK IT IS NOT VEH IMPORTANT??? this is not the first time.........

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK..

WA KAO EH.. I shud not care abt the notice board.... Juz let it be the way it is now.. COOL GREEN.

FUCK MAN..

haiz

2005-07-13T01:28:00.000-07:00

HAIZ.. Nowadays.. I am owing a lot of hw..
Wad if my name got into the COCKpit system..
HAHA.. Wad if i have public caning..
I failed for chem.. 6/25.. Nice eh?

haha.. Real nice..
Today veh good can come home so early..
Today doing of the candle was a total failure..
Think no one wud buy..
HAIZ..

Wad can i say.. Wad is wrong with the word FCUK. I mean FCUK and NOT FUCK.. It's copy right i noe.. But carn we juz put it on the candle and sell it/? A lot of pp will buy.. I noe u all wud prefer words like Faith, God is Good, God ROcks, Life is unfair.but God is good.. Yeah yeah.. And wad. God is good all the time.. WAh.. HAIZ.. I am sure that Fcuk sells better la.. YAya.. Potray a bad image of GB So i don tink it's allowed.. So carn be sold.. Don sell don sell lor.. HAIZ.. DON SELL.. heex.. Don sell..

Really trying to pull muh self together.. TO do my HW.. Or else.. I will be threatened TO do.. OR else my name wud be in the COCK pit system.. And kena public caning..

LOL.. Sound as mif i am so scared..

HEEX.. K la.. buh bgye.

wa kao eh

2005-07-11T04:33:00.000-07:00

Heexx..
Really find myself very disorganised these days..

1)I haven even hand in muh hols hw.. Me Emath and linear law hw.
2) i am so confused by the number of pp i have to inform abt badge work classes, bla bla bla.
3) a lot of hw and test ar..
4) still got tuition Hw ar..
5) Wa kao eh.. Donations. hehe.

But wad to do.. SMILE and LOOk forward..
Quite disappointed by the fact that actually some of muh squad members not veh enthu.. The secs 2s are quite nice.. But some of the sec ones.. HAIZ.. Wad can i say.. Wad i can say is that be more enthu la.. If really don like GB.. I also can understand.. Cuz sometimes It's really not nice. Den find a way to quit or so.. Liddat U not veh happy.. Ar den dampen the spirit of the whole squad.. Y muz liddat leh? If u really need help in quitting.. I expertise in this la.. can ask me..

SMILE and LOOK forward. haiz..

Seems that most of us feel so spastic abt the fortnight la.. Dunno y muz we have the target of $180?? For each gal.. For their card oni.. For booth need $25 per gal.. Means muh squad need to earn $225 dollars.. And it is like..

"nah.. I give u $20 Gimme back $225 dollars." Anyway.. $20 is the budget la..

Okie.. Seems that i am complaining.. I shall stop.

I agree this fortnight thing is a good learning experience la.. It's really a good wan.. I agree that other CCAs will not learn how to WASH CARS, Sew stuffs and even BEG people for money. They will not learn this.. They won't even noe how much it takes to get a certain activity done well.. Cuz for them, The activity is planned nice nice for them to do.. they wud not know how to change a $20 into $225.. But we noe.. We noe..

So wad is muh conclusion??

GB rocks.

Rawk on Squad 4.. Let's be stupid and copy from squad 1.. They call each other pau.. Let's call each other mian bao. They call each other rou pau, tou sar pau.. Let's call each other kaya mian bao, niu you mian bao, eh ZHU GU Li mian bao(i wan dis.. CHOCS), eh.. da pian mian bao(hu wans?) OKie.. haha..

Pray for me that muh squad members will be enthu.. Will be not so complaining..

sianx

2005-07-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

It really suck.. It really suck...............

When people are forcing you to do something you do not like..
When people expect you to do the thing PERFECTLY..
And be a POSITIVE INFLUENCE when doing the things..
And ENCOURAGE others when doing the things.

It SUCKS.........

Like i said in the previous posts.. They create a competition for us to compete... U wan money I noe.. But why the hell do we need so much money?? Others don need so much money.. Y do we need?? YYYYYYY??? can U explain Y???

grrrrrrrr........

Seriously.. I am spending too much time on something which makes me stressed... Something that is not veh beneficial to me.. HAIZ..

Wad can i say..... My studies suffer because of this.. I am not being able to have muh free time to do things i seriously like..... After doin the not-so-beneficial thing.. Wad i will be having is TUITION.. And no time NO TIME for home work. NO TIME for muh hobbies.. wanted so badly to learn piano again.. But NO TIME NO TIME......

DRIVING ME CRAZY........... FORNO REASONS.

WEEEE

2005-07-06T01:54:00.000-07:00

haha.. I am here.. YEah.. Anyway.. some publicity on squad 4 stuffs..
Who wans book mark???
HAnd made book mark??
It's nice la.. one book mark takes us like 30 mins to do.. and the cost is like ard 1 to 2 dollars.. Depending on the letters..

1 letter 20 cents
1 pattern 30 cents
den if u wan frenship band on the book mark is 50 cents.

U all interested can drop a tag or sth la... Den i come find u and let u see the samples..
Cool.. haha..

anyway.. Please support squad 4 in GB fortnight...

haha.. yeah.. nth much to say la..

ME

2005-07-05T02:38:00.000-07:00

ME MUHSELF
U noe wad??
I find sth very very wrong abt myself.
I juz find sth wrong and i dunno wad is wrong.

HAHA.. lol fine..
Yeah mabbie i am a bit of sick.. Reading someone's blog..
Seeing if someone is online..
And trying to find topics to chat with someone.

OKie.. Stop.. lol.. I am so crazy..

Today had drill prac la.. Don understand y the sec ones drill teach so slow.. Den everytiime they neva come for drill prac.. HAIZ.. I collected quite some money la.. FOr the donation card tingy.. Hope bervyn will really bring back 90 bucks for me and i don need to ask for more donations le..

These days.. are stressful days.. Wif GB fortnight.. Which is like.. WOW>. so mani things to do.. And it really suck to see that i am having my oral examinations THIS FRIDAY.. Which is like.. HAIZ.. den chem test on friday, Chinese test dis week.. Phy test next week.. Bio test next week..
THIS totally suck..

Seems dat no one else wanna donate any more money to me le.. I oni have a pathetic 95 bucks.. And i have to reach a target of $180 dollars.. HAHA.. But there are still teachers.. SUDDENLY I REMEMBERED..

I am sick.. How i wish i cud be sick.. Den donnid to go sch.. Can stay at home..

haha.. SMILE AND LOOK FOWARD.

service

2005-07-04T01:40:00.000-07:00

Well today is monday.. YOUTH day.. But i am not really disciplined.. What am i doing?? I juz did some math and found out that i dunno how to do.. AND I GAVE UP.. How spastic of me..

Yesterday was a nice day.. Had enrollment service.. Pastor talked abt Life is Unfair, but God is good. We always mistook the facts of life with the acts of God. Something like that.. And also got a nice nice poem abt a gal.. she did not drink when she went to a party.. When she drove home she died.. Cuz another car collide into her car.. And that guy drank.. That guy was in the same party as her la.. SHE died but the guy did not.. Pastor delivered the talk very well.. His expressions all that are all very good.. And we had singspiration also.. It's amazing.. All the people come infront and jump jump jump.. To praise God and be one of his children.. There is this damn cute baby sitting near us.. When pastor asked us to tell the person beside us that Life is unfair but God is good, his father told him that.. And he was like so CUTE.. lol.. Anyway.. the service was at EXPO.. Which was like 8,000 people.. At there worshipping God.. It's nice though I am not a believer of God. And that is not the oni service for the day.. there's chinese fellowship.. And mabbie hokkien??

Well.. This is sick when i am so lazy to do my work.. SIAN....
Anyway.. It's GB fortnight now.. PLease support Squad 4..
We are selling lollipops, chocolates, candles, tidbits, and other stuffs on the 12th july.
Please also help us donate money.. 2 dollars will do..
Ur money is greatly needed. as u all noe that Gb nanhua is new And we need funds.
We also need funds to conduct national events like resilience trail and leaddership conference and all that..
Gb is also in some 3rd world countries.. Like cambodia, philipines , east timor.. And alot more.. OF cuz this wan also need funds..
So please donate.... yeah?? thanks..

hahaaaaaa......

2005-07-01T04:40:00.000-07:00

Competition

A competition is for a person or a group of people to compete against each others.. Frankly speaking, i do not like competition.. I HATE IT.. Why muz there be competition.. I know it brings good results.. SupperR results.. But YYY?? In a competition.. It SUCKS.. I am afraid of losing i am certainly afraid........ And everyone wud be soooo stressed as they wanna win in the competition.. Competition is inevitable.. But muz somone manipulate us?? And make us look like idiots competiting against each other. And get what u all wan.. GET WHAT U PPL AIMED FOR.. Guessed i juz have to accept the fact.. SMILE AND LOOK FORWARD=) HAIZ

fine fine fine fine.. Gonna accept the fact.. Though i do not like the fact.. I do not like it.. ACCEPT IT ACCEPT IT.. COMPROMISE COMPROMISE....

SMILE... SMILE..

camp=]

2005-06-26T00:24:00.000-07:00

WOW.. Camp was damn damn super super fun man.. It's DAMN FUN.. haha.. especially that thing.. Eh., Think i am not supposed to type out the activities hor.. Haha.. Cuz GB peeps having the exact same one end of the year.. Wow.. Don say i bad neva tell u all.. Maybe u all could ask bb bois abt it la.. or ask me secretly, i may tell u.. LOL. But cannot post in blog.. kena scolding.. LOL. But it will be definately be fun i promise, provided it is exactly the same lor.. haha.. WAHAHAHAHHAHA.. so nice..................... Will learn a lot of things in it la.. From communications, to talents, to compromises, to anything bahx.. And to learn more abt dreaming.

Wahaha.. love ur neighbour jus as u love urself.. I muz learn this.. So i will stop those blog entries from now on and i promise.. If ever i post anymore such entries, please tell me yeah.. my neighbour has her right to choose who she wanna be with.. Juz as i have the right to choose hu i wanna be wif. she has the right to choose how she wanna present herself in front of others and me.=]

Actually i juz arrived home.. And it is.. SUNDAY.. 3.30 pm, And i am SLEEEPY, STINKY, FEELING ACHES ALL OVER.. And most importantly, I am left wif TONNES of hw.. hahahzahaha... LOL.. So how ar.. I am going to bathe.. sleep and eat dinner and come home already 8 plus le.. Den watch TV.. wahahahahaha.. good plan.. good plan.. For your information, tomorrow is MONDAY. OPENING OF school=/ Looking forward to it though.. So positive of me.. lol..

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL!! NO MATTER HOW, NO ONE WILL DAMPEN MY MOOD!!

U won

2005-06-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

SO in the end.. In this game.. U WON and I LOST..

U won by ur friendly smile
i lost by my cold face
U won by ur friendliness to everybody
I lost by my attitude

I do not see this as a game nor a battle
I just found out that
you were not the one i tot u was
you were far more friendly
too friendly

Too friendly that i get jealous
Too friendly that I often gets neglected
Too friendly that i always have to be alone

So who will be here for me?
When i am alone?
When i am neglected?
When i feel sad?

Some friends just drop by
To say a "take care"
How about you
Did u bother?

Tell me why?
Why did u left me like this?
U left with out a reason.
Letting me live in confusion.

At least gimme a reason
And i will stop
writing these blog entries
it'll stop the pain
From thinking too much..

I did not want this to happen
you started this first
So you are happy with this?

cool

2005-06-18T08:38:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. Everything is fine after my bro went to france.. Not much of missing him afterall.. haha.. So Hols eh.. This hols.. I saved up the most money.. Cuz i din even bother to go out.. Probably jus once.. After the whole leadership conference tingy.. Went to heart land shopping mall.. SPend money on food and neoprints.. Probably it's cuz no one asked me out and I did not bother to ask anyone out too.. All I had bothered about was computers, tv and slacking.. And i went out for GB, tuitions, and project.. other than the pathetic trip to heart land mall..

Yeah.. Y did i end up myself in such a state..I wud not call it pathetic cuz i don feel my state is pathetic. YEah y?? I am not initiative I understand people gets tired keeping on intiating when the response was very very cold.. Y is it like that?? Y Y y???? I juz wan a fren to be wif me, ONE will do.. I do not enjoy being in cliques.. I serouusly DO NOT ENJOY.. I juz wan a fren to share my joy when i am feeling great And a fren to share my sadness.. When i am sad..... NOT a fren hu thinks that ur success is easily achieved. And when u are happy abt ur success They will go like this " Chey.. Like that oni ma, last time my fren bla bla bla" Not a fren hu goes of playing balls with other frens when u r sad.. Not that Not that..

Anyway the second paragraph was juz crap.. ignore it.. Probably I was juz being possesive.
Anyway, i am not too much affected by the frenship tingy.. As days go by, I have learned to be a loner, Learned to spend recess alone with my disc man... ... And i overall happy with it.. But only, for sometimes I am unhappy.. Unhappy by the fact that everyone has a nice fren to lean on.. But i don.. But overall i am fine.. knowing that some other people cares for me.. Like my family..

Haha.. Got it all out feel better............................................................................. haha.. Anyway.. I don wanna go that family day tingy.. It's stupid.. I am having camp on that day.. And have to get out of camp JUZ TO GO TO FAMILY DAY.. HAIZZZZZZZZZ.. this suck..

bloody sunday

2005-06-12T20:14:00.000-07:00

Lemme blog abt yesterday..

Yesterday is a Sunday.watching water bois in the morning.. They rock man.. haha.. And in the afternoon.. basically SLACKING.. In the evening.. went to the airport to send my bro off to france.. In the night.. went to my dad fren's house to celebrate his fren's mom b day.

It's really sad to know that he will be going off for like 39 days.. And this 39 days he is not here to wake me up at 10 in the morning.. Not here to teach me math.. yeah.. Just not here.. my mom and dad are equally sad too.. I can see that.. No one is thee for them to open the shop.. And no one is to be the guai one in the family.. Cuz i am bad.. lol.. Basically they are worried la.. Going to such a faraway place.. stayirng in wadeva hostel.. haha.. And pick pockets are at large in the place there.. And things are not cheap there.. But this ain't a prob.. he has his visa card.. haha.. lol..

Actually was feeling nothing much abt it at all.. But in the airport.. when he went in the wadever.. Just suddenly realised that he will be gone for 39 days.. and I will not be seeing him for 39 days.. maybe some photos he will send me tru email.. yeah.. he will.. LOL.. ya i'm not sad afterall.. Knowing that he will be fine.. And pickpockets at france.. If u r.. happen to read.. THis blog.. don pick pocket my bro la.. haha. I am lame..

Went to my dad fren house.. Nice house though.. Juz imagine.. it has a carpark.. which is like able to contain 150 people.. And it is like four storeys high.. WOW. Probably it is nothing to u pp out dere.. but it is sth to me.. haha... It's nice there.. very casual.. and pp are true there.. real true frens.. Thanks to xiyao culture.. haha.. mUaHAhAhha.. lol.. they went dancing.. like any o how and they danced. it's like y scared.. no one will laugh and inddeed no one did.. the host was drunk and it is amazing how frens cared for him.. really amazing.. when he is drunk.. he is drubnk cuz he is too happy.. too happy.. it's his mom's b day u c.. haha.. I oso wanna go xiyao when i am 18.. hahax..

Had quite a long conversation on the phone wif my bro when travelling to the dad fren house.. He asked me to make use of my time wisely.. And i am not using it wisely now.. ahahaha.. yeah.. Whole list of hw to do.. HAIZ.. byebye..

i'm finally back

2005-06-09T00:14:00.000-07:00

Long time neva blog le.. I tink dis gonna be a long long long entry.
okie.. later going dentists.. for my stupid braces the wire kept poking on the my inner cheeks and now i cannot smile.. Whenever i smile it hurts..
These few days i have been wasting my time on sleeping, tv and even the computer.. I have not done my home work.. except for a math.. Sets, quadratic equations and remainder and factor theorem.. A little huh.. Still have tonnes to go.. lemme blog abt some stuffs

BItches
any one can regard anyone as a bitch if they tink u suck or u are a bit of vain when u fold ur skirt and keep looking at the mirror.. In the true true english bitches are meant to be female dogs.. Female dogs go fucking around with other males dogs a lot of times And they don even remember.. That is why the word bitch is often used to describe female humans who goes around fucking wif men.. Okie i will use a nicer word .. having sex.. haha.. However nowadays.. The word bitch come out of the mouth of almost everybody.. And the word bitch no longer means having sex around.. It may mean flirting around, or other stuffs which I said earlier.. People now call others bitch to express their anger. Yaya.. I dunno why am i blogging abt this..

Maybe i know why.. Cuz nowadays.. I use this word damn often.. I kept calling other people who angered me bitches.. they did not anger me directly.. But juz indirectly.. I shall not call it anger.. the proper word should be disgust.. Bitch X disgusted me.. By folding her skirt.. Not jux normal folding. it's veh veh short.. And her legs.. haha.. Not veh nice though,, I am not implying i have nicer legs then her.. I have the fattest leg.. But her legs are much much thicker than normal people's.. and she even wear bangle on the leg.. Dunno wad is that calleed.. It simply makes me wanna puke.. Yucks.. DISGUSTED. the way she sings makes me wanna puke too. she thinks she looks cool wif that live strong ting but she's not..

hha.. Kk.. Dis was the entry which i tot i lost.. But it is still here.. ignore the last entry.. haha.. so happi it is not lost..

hols..

2005-06-04T07:19:00.000-07:00

Yaya.. Hols.. haha.. Not even a hol.. sian.. I wanna change my blogkin.. but i cannot find a nice wan.. haha.. home work and home works.. haha..

so sian.. Having nothing much exccept for math remedial and leadership conference..

smile and look foward=))

haha

2005-06-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

I am freaked out by jan's tag.. that's y i decided to update..

It's the freakish holidays now.. And it is freakish cuz.. IT IS NOT A HOLIDAY AFTERALL.. I have been busy and have no time to update.. I had camp and remedial or u may wanna call it supplementary.. And wadeva workshops and loads of home work.. And i haven started at all... hahaa.. This holidays i will wanna complete my hw.. I really wan.. haha..

I am sorta not happy this days as I tot i wud be fine but i am not.. those pp in my class shud noe la hor.. it's so obvious.. I am trying to be fine.. And time heal all wounds.. I'll be a new qiyuan by the end of the hols.. yeah.. haha.. I will be fine.. I will be better..

I wanna tok abt the dream camp.. It's FUN k?? Even though it was not as good as i expected.. But it's stil okie.. Probably without the BB officer scolding me,.. I wud feel better.. lemme tell u wad happened..

It was outdoor cooking.. And my squad was sitting in a circle doing outdoor cooking.. I was having my attitude problem already.. Cuz of my squad and stuffs and too tired from the trail.. BB officers were sitting beside us.. as in another circle near to us. And BB officers juz asked me for lighter and i gave them.. I threw it to them.. Den they return it back.. And asked for it again.. And i threw it.. And one of them came out to me and said, "Hey gal this is the last warning. PLease watch ur attitudde towards the officers." I was like huh"wad attitude" This affected my mood of the day greatly and this made me have a rather not so good impression on bb.. I used to have a good one k.. haha,.,, K K.. I am at fault from the start..

Firstly I should not have chose the place.. I should not have borrowed them the lighter.. Mabbie I shud ask others to pass it there.. Nicely hands to hands.. With a great big smile and say. " Lance coporal blah blah blah.. Reporting on behalf on squad X to lend u the lighter. Any further instructions SIR" like this they may be happy.. ya stop this,... it make me feel bad again,..,

I have nothin to say le la.. haha.. keep the tags going peeps!! CAs thanks k.. I may not be the best leader.. But i am learning to be one.. And We are all learning.. let's learn together,,!!

haiz

2005-05-21T20:01:00.000-07:00

Blogging seems not very FUN afterall.. I dunno wad to blog about.. haha.. Like wad?? tell U where i went ytd or anything like dat?? haha.. K den.. lemme tell u abt friday.. Friday's nice k?? Went to JP to change mee chay's skirt.. haha.. Den went home and went for cultural pot.. It's OKie.. Dance is nice .. the oai oai oai dance.. it's damn nice.. No wonder they have gold wif honour.. it's nicest.. the other items are okie.. I was quite sad on friday.. Cuz i tot that i shud not give up my music juz like that.. Juz because of my laziness i gave up on music.. I wanna learn again from scratch.. But i don have the patience.. I may be the only grade 3 among the pp of my age.. But I think i shud learn the piano again.. I muz find the time.. Music is good for health anyway.. Den i went home.. slept.

Saturday is a slacking day for me I juz ate my breakfast and i slept again.. I slept until like 7 in the evening.. I dunno why nowadays.. I love sleeping.. Without feeling tired of it.. Probably it's in the sleep i can really really be happy.. Or am i too tired from school.. Friends and family... I do not know. Anyway.. sleeping is FUN..

K K.. I shall be positive ya? I will be positive.. holidays are approaching. And it is time for me to do the things i really wan and i really like.. Like the piano.. And it is also the time to prepare me for my chinese O level.. YEAH.. I cannot slacken I shall not.. K.. GTG byebey..

weeee

2005-05-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

haahahahaa.. today is quite fun.. went bugis buy PMK shirt.. got a free bag.. going there tml also.. k la.. don feel like typing.. byebye..

actually not that bad afterall

2005-05-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

thing are not that bad afterall.. Really and i mean it.. probably yesterday I was juz pmsing.. haha.. it's not that bad and i hope it won't be bad for the next few days.. I juz read my ting xie today and i got quite a good grade though.. read between lessons and when teacheers are teaching.. haha.. I tink I am starting to like my place and the people ard me.. And not hate them.. Anyway.. Zhi Wei signed an agreement.. it goes like this..

If I, Yap Zhi Wei.. neva treat yanling and qiyuan NYDC on 2nd june, I wil pay each of them a thousand dollar.. and there goes the signature and all that...

haha.. NYDC on second june.. hahahahahahahahaha... Anyway.. I FAILED MY A MATH TEST ON SETS.. It is such a easy topic and yet i failed.. HAUIZ.. NEVA Mind.. I tink overall i will pass... For CA i mean.. Den went to KFC for lunch.. Went window shopping at clementi central.. Den went back to school late for CIP.. haha.. Got the tickets for cultural pot.. So happy Gb is sitting together.. haha.. Den slacked ard in school wif meechay, yanbing and huiwen.. Tml Will be going out to buy polo tee for cultural pot.. Is white or pink better?? I am wearing it wif a black skirt.. not long not short.. haah.. Anyway.. haha.. byebey.....

lemme tell ya sth

2005-05-17T01:01:00.000-07:00

Things are getting pretty sian in school nowadays... Tests and Tests And Tests.. Even the most interesting stuff in my school life, GB has tests on total defence.. Had math test today.. Will be having ting xie tml.. And I think the tests are here at the right time.. Juz the right time.. When I am sorta sad as things around me starts to change... Friends starts to change.. I have no idea why.. Probably I am not as bitchy as u.. Or am i too bitchy for u.. I do not Know.. Anyway I chose not to care about u.. It's fine wif me anyway.. I'll take things positively..... If i really can.. I'll try damn hard.. Since we can't even get along well for juz a simple 6 months.. I don c y we should carry it on.. Like the chinese say.. 8 digits do not match la.. LOL.. Back to tests and the busy schedule..

Will be having GB dream camp immediately at the start of the hols.. And the whatever Bio camp. LOL.. And the whatever workshop.. and leadership conference.. a lot a lot.. haha.. kk.. tok abt the wans nearer wan first.. VESAK DAY IS APPROACHING.. I wanna go pulau ubin to see wad is the environment there.. haven been there for a long time.. Wll be having chinese test next week.. Yeah I am happy anyway.. Will be going uncle pek's house later.. HAven been there for a long time.. So muz do finish Hw first bahz.. byebye...

camp.. canoe

2005-05-15T02:38:00.000-07:00

BloGing on Camp and canoeing

basically went for camping.. On the labrador adventure centre.. It's very fun.. everyone was very very enthu there.. the tiredness cannot be compared to GB camp but the enthuness can.. The peeps there are far more enthu den peeps in GB camp.. It's Fun anyway.. I like the part when everyone was enthu.. everyone was enthu.. haha.. And i gotta noe frens.. And I gotta noe teachers better.. Like MRs lim and Ms wassan.. They are good role models for us to follow.. They served the school for such a long time and yet they still live with faith.. hopes.. And dreams..

Canoeing.. Was fun also.. Capsized three times.. haha.. unable to get up after capsizing.. need instructor to pull me up.. haha.. Got the cert for star 1.. And I think we can go canoe wherever we wan....... Whenever I mean.... LOL whereever./. haha.. Can go for star 2 if we wan.. Eh... GB peeps.. U all wan go for star 2?? can december den go notx?? haha.. CAnoing is fun.. But i don have the confidence to canoe.. all that.. I am scared of waters.. And I am spastic.. ahah.. I am oweiz the last.. haah... So gimme time to adapt.. so dec den go can??? haha...

K la.. was slacking today.. tml got test.. phy and total defence.. haha.. sian.. dunno wad to write.. beyebye..

another nice day..

2005-05-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

todayy is a slackin day.. haha.. was quite sian in class la hor.. got scolded by that mrs lee for laughing.. WAD HAS THE WORLD COME TO?? CAN"T WE EVEN LAUGH??? Y can't we even laugh.. Anyway.. from this.. I can conclude that

She is not confident Abt herself.. (esp her hair)
She is a sadist(Don Let Us laugh)
She is a boring person( she said"chemistry is meant to be boring I don c y u all laugh")

Had math test.. And i totallly scrrewed it up.. Everyone was saying it was easy.. And i find it damn hard.. I din study.. That's y.. Had chinese ting xie later and screwed it up too... haha.. Den was okie la.. Went for parade for a while.. And went to shop.. Den saw my junior mom.. And she chatted wif me abt her dotter prob.. And was asking if GB could help her dotter.. sth liddat.. I dunno wad to ans her.. ANYWAY.. I HAVE A NEW PENCIL BOX>. IT IS QIYUAN BRANDED!!! VEH NICE.. hahahahahhaahahha.. the two and oni pencil box in the world.. Hahaaha... Went for dinner and packeed my camp stuffs.. I wanted to study for my ss.. but gave up even b4 starting.. I seem to drift further and further away from my studious self.. BUT wait.. since when was i studious?? Haha.. In primary school..... I dunno wad to type le.. I am so sian... Feel like sleeping.............

Sun Tan/BurN??

2005-05-07T04:02:00.000-07:00

SUNBURN
basically had canoeing today.. From 9am to 5 pm... haha.. firslty need to go to sch first.. I was on the same train as the BB officer.. But i was late and he is not.. Funnie?? haha... Was canoeing With Clara.. She is a damn positive girl.. Clara.. I need to learn from U.. I heart U too!!! Let's work together to make squad 4 the best squad..

K back to the topic.. We are canoeing wif the sec ones BB guys.. haha.. SEC ONES.. lol.. some of them are quite ok la.. But all very dao and all tt.. LOL.. overall it is quite nice.. I have sunburns on my face.. I like the part where we could actually steer our canoe in the direction we want it to go.. haha.. I was like wanting it to go left and it kept going straight and straight and STRAIGHT until we reach the shore.. Until the instruction must push us back into the waters.. SEA i mean.. LOl..

I also quite like the capsize part.. Imagine.. We have to self capsize ourselves and remain in the sitting position in the water (vertically inverted) hold on to the hull.. and tap in three times before we can get out of the seat and shout "help help" raising the paddle.. LOL.. Anyway.. GB really rocks.. so anyone out there wanna learn canoeing, archery, sushi making, craftwork, leadership, and the normal uniform group stuffs.. CUm to GB.. Gb rocks.. ya.. one more thing to add.. If u wanna look at BB boys.. Cum join GB.. we have combine singspiration.. camps, stuffs like canoeing.. But i doubt anyone will.... haha..

I have two test next week.. Math and Bio.. I am so tired and i doubt i can study today.. I feel sleepy now.. haiz... I tink i gtg byebye..

6/5

2005-05-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

6/5/o5

Today is a nice day.. haha... Was slacking for lessons today.. quite fun.. tink got sum teacher neva come... forgotton hu.. haha.. Den when to orchard wif yanling, jan, and a tam.. haha.. It was fun k.. Was making fun of a tam the whole journey.. N bought sports bra for yixin.. but din have pink leh.. As in that pink damn ugly.. So i bot orange.. Shud be can la hor.. Den went back to sch for speech day..

WoW.. kegan is my goal MAN!!! he is so.. HAIZ.. pro.. haha.. N it was quite fun la.. Slackin there to.. haha.. And ate in school with meechay.. Meechay don be sad ya?? ur service is really much needed.. Even if u r deprived of this opportunity.. There are many other opportunities for u to Shine. I believe u will shine as bright as a star.. It is true ya?? Haha.. goin canoeing tml.. So nice.. GTg byebye..

haha

2005-05-04T00:00:00.000-07:00

Juz a fine day

It is juz a fine day today.. Well quite tired so came home early! I mean very tired.. Wif so mani tests on a week.. Well.. gotta noe that bb and gb is having the camp together again! haha.. Dunno to be happy or sad.. N I dunno y i luv camps.. Even it make me tired and it willl take me weeks to recover.. HAHA.. Camping is nice k?? got time to get to noe each other more.. N toking abt camp.. When is the interview for the leadership camp?? anyone noes?? the camp is next week and there isn't any interview.. does it means.. Everyone nominated can go?? or it has been cancelled... I dUNNO..

Time really files.. it is now already half of the year.. N wad is supposed to be done is not.. Like my resolutions.. N It really flies.. Juz like an airplane flying past.... For a while it is gone.. I have changed a lot since sec 2 till now.. And i mean.. changes positively.. I get to noe myself better and love myself better.. And i like this change in me.. And I juz read my resolution.. found out that.. actually.. i had achieved most of my resolution.. Except for.... Shedding weight.. studying hard.. be good to parents.. But i am trying.. I wanna thank a lot of pp for this change.. Firstly.. Uncle pek.. my family.. which includes my daddy.. mommy.. n brother.. N vina.. N GB.. GB certainly rocks my life.. N frens.. Like meechay.. cheryl.. N lot more.. THANKS to all of u for letting me grow.. I certainly grown a lot..

I have no bio test dis week.. postpone AGAIN.. to next week.. left wif no more tests.. Aniway.. I have nothin to blog abt,.. gtg byebye..... ANYWAY Gb rocx..

HOROSCOPE

2005-05-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

HOROSCOPE

haha.. got this frm email.. kk.. wad i tink abt myself will be in pink.. And wad i don tink will be in light green... neutral will be blue...

CAPRICORN WOMAN A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person. She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

haha.. nice wan ya?? LOL.. watchin ruhua now.. byebye..

NEw template

2005-04-30T19:54:00.000-07:00

Well.. gotta new template.. nice notx?? haha... Rainbows.. I remembered wad off jessse said.. God bless us wif rainbows.. Aft every rain there wud be a rainbow... this is god's promise.. But i tink my previous skin nicer lehx.. LOL.. haha..

I luRvE ToDAy

2005-04-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

I love today

LOL.. i love taday.. BAsically was slacking.. I was sleeping from like 3 to 6.. haha.. it's at least better den going to bugis wif yanling they all.. I think.. haha..

I really hate a feeling.. I am fine being alone everywhere i go.. I agree i do not have similar topics wif a normal teenage nan hua gal.. I am a weirdo.. And i enjoy being a weirdo.. But i don like the feeling.. someone being Unhappy and he or she will come to me.. and when she is happy he or she will juz go off.. And lead her or his happy life wif out me.. I don like it..

HAha.. NVM.. i'm fine wif it.. LEARN TO accept!!! haha.. N for goodness sake la.. i juz read my chem text book for a while.. N i start to use the comp.. LOL.. i promise myself to not use the comp today.. haha.. broke my promise.. I am such a slacker.. GTG.. watch tv byebye..

hehehe

2005-04-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

HEHEHE

hahahaha.. Well the new sitting arangement was actually okie la.. Actually it was like maybe better.. Cuz jan was behind me and JAN.. GOT SWEETS.. hahahaha.. Today was quite fun la.. As i said the sitting arangement din really suck tt much..

Currently, i am over the moon.. OMG.. i am kind, confident and cheerful!!!! haha.. YINING say tt i am like this.. LOL.. my inner beauty she said i was kind cuz i don even kill an ant,... TRUE.. aft tt tissue paper incident.. haha.. N i am detailed.. As i look into details and i am CALM.. that is wad i do not agree abt ya.. hahah.. I fret over a lot of things and i go crazy and my brain explode when a lot of things juz came into my tots... I am not able to do things calmy.. haha/... I will be positive and learn to be calm..

Kk.. tok Abt sch.. Quite fun la.. YEp.. going for careforce like saturday.. for a 2km walk.. lol.. it says walkathon.. den it sounds very long.. it end up to be 2 km oni.. haha.. kk.. byebey.. tag leh..

woowoowoww...

2005-04-25T04:15:00.000-07:00

WoooWWOwOow
haha.. eh.. today was quite FUN la.. haha.. Oni two things make me unhappy.. yup!! onI Two..

sitting arrangement
GB

Well.., but i am fine now!!! Was actually feeling very shitty in the afternoon.. but when i came home.. my dad encouraged me.. Thanks DAD.. And followed by mee chay.. Thanks Mee Chay.. And followed by sijin.. Thanks Si jin.. Thank you all of u for letting me feel so much better.. Den when i immediately came online.. xinyun was here to cheer me up.. Thanks ya!!!

I still have like a lot of things to do.. but the thing that is due tml is the Cme project.. haha.. I seem to be hai di lao zhen.. cannot find anything in the internet.. haha... I am suppose to find out Wad hindus do to show their faith in their places of worship and wad does it represent.. hmmm.. seem to be quite hard to find lor.. N it is indeed hard.. Finally i printed the endorsement tingy for miss wassan to sign.. den i will have like 5 cip hours.. haha... so nice..

k la.. i gtg n do project le la.. Hope u all enjoy reading.. Buaiz..